ThatsSoMeee

 do you ever get so annoyed
at everything

that you start to get mad at even little things
like a spoon clinking against a bowl
or sounds of people talking?
 

Do you think he remembers
the moments too?

Do you think he looks at a calendar
and just pauses for a second,
remembering the significant events that happened
this day years in the past?
Does a boy’s heart ache when he thinks of
what used to be,
or does it not even cross his mind?
 

i felt something
catch in my throat,
a sudden surge of sadness
that caught me unaware.
It almost managed to take my breath away.

That was the thing;
you never got used to it.
You never got used to the idea
of someone being gone.
Just when you think it’s okay,
and you think you’ve accepted it,
someone points it out to you,
and it hits you all over again,
and it’s just as shocking
as the first time...
 

I want 
morning and noon and nightfall with you.
I want your tears, your smiles, your kisses…
the smell of your hair,
the taste of your skin,
the touch of your breath on my face.
 

The most comfortable place
in the world

is me and you,
my head on your chest,
feeling it rise and fall
and listening to your heartbeat,
your arms wrapped around me,
holding me so tight...
 

There’s a difference between
goodbye and letting go
Goodbye is
‘I’ll see you again when I’m ready to hold your hand
and when you’re ready to hold mine.’

Letting go is
‘I’ll miss your hand. I realized it’s not mine to hold,
and I will never hold it again.’
 

The way someone can get me
so nervous  scares me,

but the funny thing is you know nothing
that’s going on inside my head.
It’s like I know everything I want to say to you
but all the words get tangled up and come out wrong.

Have you ever realized that you could say the simplest of things
and it would make my day go from being original
to amazing in just a few words?
But the worst thing is that all these little things I feel inside
could never be said to you,
because on top of it all,
you are my biggest fear.
I’m scared that if I tell you everything
things will change,
and will never be the same.
So keeping it bottled up
is the only way of not getting hurt.