You know, you never actually see
who a person is until they still love you after
you’ve done the unforgivable.
Even though you’ve done
everything unimaginable, they still put up with you,
because that’s how much you mean to
Not only that, but you have to be
able to forgive yourself, and even after you’ve
managed to do that, you still can never truly forget about
what you’ve done.
I’m still trying to forgive
myself for what I did to Jake that day on the
At first, I felt so powerful, like
I did what was right, and that Jake got what he
deserved. But after I thought about it, I don’t
know why I did it.
If it hurt me so much, than why
would I want to make anyone else feel
Revenge, I guess, but no one
deserves to feel that hurt, that
Sometimes I try to convince myself
that what I did was right, that how I humiliated him was
just making up for how he humiliated me.
But then I go back to all of those
happy times, the times that meant everything to me.
The times that I would hate to lose over my
That night, Jake and I sat in my
room and talked for hours.
I don’t even think I could
tell you what we talked about, I was just so glad to be
I don’t know why it took me
so long to realize I still love Jake. I guess it was
maybe because I tried so hard to convince myself that I
didn’t. And after you lie so many times, you
begin to forget the truth.
You begin to lose yourself in the
person you’re trying to become, and that’s what
I did when I moved to Maine with my dad for two
years. I lost myself. And even now, after being
back home for so long, there are still parts of me that are
missing. Parts of me I know I won’t be able to
When I left for Maine, I promised
myself I’d come back a new person. But now that
I’m looking back at it, I’m not sure I’m
proud of the person I’ve become.
Jake has forgiven me for everything
I’ve done, and it’s obvious that he’s a
different person that he used to be. I just wish I
would have realized it earlier, before I screwed everything
Jake and I have been dating for a
year now, and even though he says he loves me, the look in
his eyes is always different than when he used to say
it. It’s like he has this wall up, a wall
keeping him from falling to hard.
I blame myself for that. For
messing with his emotions, and his trust.
I know now that everyone makes
mistakes, and even though I sometimes hate to admit it,
everyone deserves a second chance, no matter what
Even Zoe, even
And maybe, just
even girls like
of a weird ending/epilogue? I don't know, just
throught i'd write it in a different
perspective.♥Wow, where do I
even start..I love you all♥ Seriously, I
couldn't ask for better readers than all of you.
This story has really taught me a lot, and I have grown
close to so many of you.♥I
hope I get the chance to know more of you in my future
prologue for my next story will probably be up next week
sometime..I'd just like to take a little break
(: I love you all < 3
xoxo Stay Beautiful♥