IT'S 7TH
GRADE..
I stared at the girl next to me... She
was my so called "best friend"... I stared at her...
Long, silky hair... And I wished she was mine... But she
didn't notice me like that... I knew it... After class she
walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day
before... And I handed them to her... She said
"thanks"... And gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted
to tell her... I want her to know that I don't want to be
"just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to
tell her... And I don't know why...
IT'S JUNIOR YEAR..
My phone rang... On the other end it was her... She was in
tears... Mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her
heart... She asked me to come over because she didn't want to
be alone... So I did... As I sat next to her on the sofa... I
stared at her soft eyes... Wishing she was mine... After 2
hours... I Drew Barrymore movie... And 3 bags of chips... She
decided to go to sleep... She looked at me.. Said
"thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted to
tell her... I want her to know... That I don't want to be
"just friends"... I love her but I'm too shy to
tell her... And I don't know why...
IT'S SENIOR YEAR..
The day before prom... She walked to my locker... "My date
is sick" she said... He's not going to go... Well... I
didn't have a date and in 7th grade... We made a promise that
if neither of us had dates... We'd go together just as
"best friends"... And so we did...
IT'S PROM NIGHT..
After everything was over with... I was standing at her front
door step... I stared at her ... She smiled at me... I wanted her
to be mine... But she doesn't think of me like that... And I
know it... Then she said "I had the best time...
Thanks!"... And she gave me a kiss on the cheek... I wanted
to tell her... I wanted her to know that I don't want to be
"just friends"... I love her but I'm just too
shy... And I don't know why...
IT'S GRADUATION DAY..
A day passed... And then a week... And then a month... Before I
could blink... It was graduation day... I watched her... Perfect
body... Floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma... I
wanted her to be mine... But she doesn't think of me that
way... And I know it... Before everyone went home... She came to
me in her smock and hat... And cried as I hugged her... Then she
lifted her head from my shoulders and said "you're my
best friend"... "Thanks!"... And gave me a kiss on
the cheek... I wanted to tell her.. I wanted to know that I
wanted to be more than "just friends"... I love her but
I'm too shy... And I don't know why...
IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER..
Now I sit in the pews of the church... A church that she is
getting married in now... I watched her say "I do" an
drive off to her new life... Married to another man... I wanted
her to be mine... But she didn't see me like that... And I
knew it... But before she drove away... She came to me and said
"You came!... Thanks!"... And she kissed me on the
cheek... I wanted to tell her... I wanted her to know that I
didn't want to be "just friends"... I love her but
I'm just too shy... And I don't know why...
YEARS PASSED..
I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my
"best friend"... At the service they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years... This is what it said...
"I stare at him... Wishing he was mine... But he doesn't
notice me like that... And I know it... I wanted to tell him... I
wanted him to know... That I don't want to be "just
friends"... I love him but I'm just too shy... And I
don't know why... I wish he would tell me he loved
me"... I wish I did too... I thought to myself and I
cried...rest in peace my Love