Chapter 3, Lonley
Oh no. I'm so stupid! How could
I have let her see it!? I wonder whats going to happen.. Probably
end up being a bad night, where my mom just drinks and drinks,
and drinks. But who really knows? I'll just have to wait till
tonight.
Since Mom had dropped the letter after I just stared at her while
she read, I picked it up, went to the shredder, and shoved the
piece of paper in. Then I took the envelope with the adress, and
was determined. 'I am going to figure out what's with my
dad, whether it kills me or not' I think. I'll leave when
everybody is sleeping. Granny and Pops out of the way, mom, drunk
as a skunk.
Pops see's me.
" Whatcha' doing sweetie?"
"Not much, just thinking. You?" I say in a nervous
voice.
" Coming to get something to eat, you want pizza?" He
says.
" Sure" I say innocently.
" Granny told me... About the letter.. I think you should
talk to your mo-"
I cut him off.
"I don't want to talk about it. She's dead drunk
anyways. She'll just push me away like she always does. She
doesn't care. If she did, She wouldn't be drunk all
day."
" She can't help it! She's been parylized with grief
since you father left! I can't even believe you
woul-"
"NO! IF SHE LOVED ME OR BEN SHE WOULD HAVE GOT OFF HER BUTT,
AND DID SOMETHING WITH HER LIFE!" I say accusingly.
I guess her alchol didn't sink in yet. She must have heard us
yelling, and came down stairs.
"So you think I don't love you do you?" She says in
a hollow voice.
"Mo-mom, I didn-didn't know you we-were
there.."
"I'm glad to know you think I hate you. It shows how
ungreat full you are"
How ungreatfull I am? Excuse me for standing up for myself, but I
think she's the one who's ungreatfull. She has children
you know.
"I don't want to see your face right now. Go. Now. Leave
if you I don't love you" My mom says holding in
tears.
So I left.
Chapter 4, Lonley
I run out of the room, not knowing
how to react to anything. Granny has never been this mad before.
Maybe I should show Pops? Granny might not want him to see. Is
there some kind of secret they are all hiding from me? Is he not
my biological dad? Has he been spending his life in jail? Does it
really anger everybody to think that my own dad doesn't even
know that his 1st son, Ben, is dead.
I don't know what to do, so I go to sit on Ben's bed. My
pain of missing him throbs in my heart. I re-picture how I saw
him.
He was laying on the ground when I got there. It was obvious
where he got hit, it was a large Jeep, and Ben, he wasn't
very tall. The Jeep smashed in his shoulder, then shoving his
helpless body to bleed out on the ground. That wasn't the
worst part. He hit his head on the ground, cracking his skull.
Leaving him to bleed to death. I showed up about 10 minutes
later, I saw the yellow blanket the cops layed over his body.
Dead already. I ran to him. All I could think was how we had
fought over the bathroom this morning, and the last thing I told
him was that I hated him.
Then this is when my world comes back to focus and I see mom, she
took the balled up letter that I threw on the ground when I
started to lay on Ben's bed, and she was reading it. She was
pale and looked as if she was about to puke. I remember that skin
tone. The very same of Ben's. Expecially when he died.
Chapter 3, Lonley
"My dear
children,
First off the money is for your missed birthdays, 90$ for each of
you. Ben happy 14th birthday, Anya happy 16th birthday.
First off, I would like to know how you to have been doing
without me. I'm sorry I left. Casey, your new step-mom, has 2
kids with me. A 3 year-old names Alyssa and a 8 year-old named
Brian. They don't know about you, but Casey does. I want to
see you kids. How's you mom? How's Granny and Pops?
What about Lucky? Is that old dog still alive? You probably
don't want to know much more from me, but you can call me, my
phone number is 123-456-7890. We can set up a date or something.
Text or call. We also live on 198 Meadow lane, PA. Send me a
letter back if you want. I just want to hear from the kids I
love.
From Daddy."
That was one of the most pathetic letters I ever read. He
doesn't care about us. He doesn't know Ben is dead.
D-E-A-D dead. And for his information, we are all fine without
him. And Lucky, she's 10. UGH. I hate that monster. I
don't want to contact him. I crumple up the letter but keep
the money. 180$ could come in handy you know.
I decide to show Granny and Pops, they will know what to do.
I run across the hall to find my grandma vacuuming, and I hand
her the letter. She just reads it and gawks. She can't
believe it either.
" He had and has no right! He is a horrible man and I
don't want you talking to him. It will also tear up your mom.
Throw this out now. We don't need him." says Granny
furiously.
" Uh, okay.." I reply squeamishly. I have never seen
Granny this mad.
Chapter 2, Lonley
When I wake up, Pops is
standing in my door-way, with a sad expression written across his
face. All he does is walk in my room, hand me a glass of water
and a pill I recognize to be Advil, and the letter. As he walks
out of my room I immediately shove the nail-sized pill in my
mouth, and wash it down with the glass of cool water. I slowly
set down the water and close my eyes. I picture my dad, the last
time I saw him. Those ever-green eyes, the short curly black
hair, the slight build, and those shoes. The shoes I danced on
for years. Standing on his feet, holding on to his hands, as he
slowly stepped in circles.
I quickly open my eyes and shake the memories from my head.
He's not my dad. He betrayed my mom and left me and Ben
without a good-bye.
I crumple up the letter, I don't want to read his
words. I don't need him. He doesn't even know Ben's
dead. He's not a dad at all. He's a monster,
leaving his children and wife for his secret girlfriend,
and her growing belly , because I'm guessing they had
kids.
I close my eyes shutting out the horror. Thank gosh it's only
Saturday. I don't know If I would be able to face going back
to school tomorrow. I think I'm going to take a nap. Me, Anya
Horshi. As I squeeze my eyes closed, I start to realize, I
can't block this out forever, I have wanted to hear from my
dad for 9 years. When my letter finally comes, I don't read
it? Maybe it wont hurt anything if I read it. Then I can just
forget about the monster's words and move on. I slowly sit up
in bed, open my eyes and stand up. I'm not dizzy anymore, so
I bend over and pick up the crumpled envelope. I sit back
down on my bed, and slowly smooth out the envelope with my thigh.
I take my thumb and gingerly slide it under the seal and open
it.
As I pull out the letter, money falls out. I scooch away from it.
I don't want to know what it's for just yet. I unfold the
letter and see the carfully written words of what I had assumed
were my fathers, but who knows, I could be wrong.
Chapter 1, Lonley
It's such a quiet
world I live in.
My dad left us when I was 7. He had other children with a
prettier lady. My mom is an acholic now. She's always drunk.
I can't remember the last time I saw her when she wasn't
drunk. We live with my grandma and grandpa, (Granny and Pops),
and my little brother, Ben, died 2 years ago when he
got hit by a car walking to school.
I'm 16 now. I'ts been 9 years since I have seen my
dad, but my whole world came crashing down when I got the
letter.
I was just sitting in Ben's room, holding his sweatshirt as I
always do when Granny and Pops aren't home, when I heard our
dog, Lucky, barking. I looked at the clock, 2:30. The mail just
arrived.
As I sauntered down my stairs, I saw my mom with the mail, just
starting to cry.
" Mom? What's wrong..?" I asked her.
" Nothing. I'm uhh, I'm going to bed. Feed
yourself." She said trying as hard as she could to keep a
straight face. Drunk again. As always.
I started looking through the mail, maybe something was in here
that upset her? Who knows. Could just be taxes. As I
shuffled through the mail, I saw our names. The letter said,
" To my children, Anya and Ben. From Dad." I dropped
the letter on the table. I was shocked. I suddenly felt dizzy. My
world spinning. I just barely made it to my couch before I
colapsed. My breathing was fast, and I was choking. I was wishing
Ben was here. Then I blacked out.