I can't see past
college. It feels as if it's my only goal in life and
that makes me feel very sad, you know? Not knowing what I
will do after I graduate from college. All I'm doing is
studying. What will happen after college? No more studying.
Well, of course I want to get a job. But I have no idea
about that either. Maybe I'll end up living a standart
life. And that thought scares me, I don't like the idea
of being normal. Not changing the world. Not meaning
anything. I want to do something helpful un the time
between my birth and death. Nobody exceot my family will
remember me 5 years after I die, and that is if they're
still alive by then. I just don't know what I'm
going to do. Everytime I think of it my brain becomes a
huge mess. I'm scared of the
future.