Watching the world pass
by,
listening to people cheerfully laugh,
watching them hold each other,
i sit back and think to myself ,
why am i left alone?
why am i left with no one?
was it because they never loved me?
or was it because i really was useless?
or did i just push them away?
i never meant for things to end like
this...
why can't they see?
I don't want to be like this.
I don't want to have horrible eyebrows that join in the
middle.
I don't want to have really bad spots on my face.
I don't want to be extremely clumsy.
I don't want to be too tall.
I don't want to be heavier than everyone else.
I don't want to be ugly.
I don't want to be annoying.
I don't want to be the way I am.
But I am.
& nobody can accept
that.
so i like this
boy. ♥
he's a year older, mature, sweet, and
wicked cute.
the good thing is; he likes me back
he told his sister that.
the bad thing is; his sister is my best
friend.
we had a thing once, but decided to end it, because we never saw
eachother.
and he was getting made fun of for talking to a younger girl.
he says he plans on taking me to homecoming next year.
he hasn't talked to me in forever.
but once in a while when i'm at his house, he'll flirt
with me.<3
i texted him last month, and he never replied. so i dont know if
he didnt get it.
or didnt wanna talk.
i'm hoping he'll wish me a happy birthday in two
days.
and then i'll try to get a conversation going.
but what if he doesn't?!
WHAT DO I DO.
i reeaallllly like him! i've liked him for over a year now.
:-/
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