WickedVengeance

Babe. That info. :\

I know I said I would leave you be, but I just need to say... I hope you had a wonderful Christmas, full of love and happiness. I hope it was everything you wanted, and I am glad you are happy. I miss you terrible, babe. I love you, take care.

Your picture is like female Slenderman...

He has my girl. He is a douche bag.

Damien, he's not a douche bag. He's actually really amazing, even you would get along with him, if the circumstances were different. I don't want to fight with you about this anymore. The best thing I can say to you right now is just take it day by day. Maybe I'll be stupid enough to forgive you, but that day is not today. I need to do this for me, to keep myself from going insane with all the drama we have been through. Our lives could be a damn movie... I just want some normalcy for a while....

You used to call me amazing. That hurts. Please just ditch this guy and come back. We can work on things together, fix us, fix me... I'll do anything, I just can't live without you.

The more you beg, the more it makes me want to be with Dave. I said back off and let things happen the way they should, and you just can't. You're ruining any slim chance you may have, and honestly? I don't even know if it's worth fixing. If you're worth the pain. I no longer have anything to say to you.

Fine. Obviously you have your mind made up. Just so you know, I will ALWAYS be waiting for you, if you change your mind. I really hope you do, because we have so much together. We made children together. We lost them together. We got married. You were there for me for every loss I suffered. Everything. But go ahead, start a new life with a new guy. When he breaks your heart, I'll be there to pick up the pieces. To take back what's mine. I love you.

Good bye.

DD? Please, just give me one more chance to prove myself? You and I have so much history together, and I made a huge mistake, but you're really willing to throw it all away on that? I realize I'm a dick, and I always put you last, but that will change. I'm falling apart without you... When you left, so did Zackry and David. I haven't heard from any of you in days. I feel like I'm living in hell, and you're the only source of happiness I have left... And I don't even have you... Please, please call me or text me, or something, my number hasn't changed... I have so much to say, so much to prove... I'm sorry to write this all out here but I have no other way of contacting you... If you're still in New York I'd love to see you. I'm flying out there to put a wreath on my Mum's headstone for Christmas, maybe we could get tea?

One more chance? Just like last time, and the time before that? Maybe even the times before those "last chances". Yes,we have history, and yes, I AM throwing it away, because I deserve so much better than being condemned to a life with a husband who cheats on me (with other men, might I add) and uses drugs CONSTANTLY to make up for his pathetic life. I understand you still miss your mom, but it's been almost four years, and you can't use that as an excuse for using drugs anymore. I know Zack and DJ left, I talk to them. You deserve to feel bad, at least for a while. You brought this on yourself, and I don't feel the least bit sorry for you. I won't call you, nor will I text you. I changed my number for a reason. Don't bother dropping by the house when you're in NY, either, I've moved. No, I don't want to meet you for tea, it will only make things harder for you, because it won't change anything. And yes, DD. Someone I can count on to be there, sober, not cranked up on meth, coke, or crack, and someone I know won't cheat and me over. Let me know when you grow up, maybe we can be friends someday.

Babe, I cannot be without you. What do you want me to do? I'll go to rehab again, and stay this time. I'll move to Canada with you so you can be home. I'll cut everyone from my life so you never have to worry about me cheating again. The drugs, the drinking, it's all history. I just need you in my life. You've been here for me for everything. Mum's death, Jorden's death, Riley's death... Gideon's death. I hate to bring it up, I know how much it still bothers you, but I'll do it if I have to. Just meet me somewhere for tea, or coffee, whichever you prefer. I just need to see you, talk to you, hear your voice, to know that you're okay. You are my life, and have been for five years... You always will be... Even if I fail at getting you back this time, I swear I'm never going to date or get married again. It's you or nobody. I hate the fact that you're already hanging out with this DD person, assuming it's a guy... What does he have that I can't give you? I promise to drop the drugs, the drinking, everyone and everything. I'll delete this account, get rid of my email, phone number, anything! Why is it so hard for you to see that I am genuinely sorry and that I love you more than anything? I would give up Zackry and David if it meant getting you back. I'd give up my job, all the money in the bank, my car, my house, EVERYTHING. This is killing me, I just want you back....

This isn't about moving to Canada, or giving up your friends, changing your phone number, or whatever. This is about the fact that you WON'T STOP USING DRUGS. You always say you'll change, but it lasts for what... A week? Two, if I'm lucky... And how dare you bring up Gideon? That will NOT win me over, so don't you even DARE try to talk about that. I don't care that you don't like him, Dave makes me really happy, and he's easy to get along with. He has the most amazing personality, and he's RELIABLE. Much unlike you. I can never tell what kind of day you're having, or if you're hopped up on drugs or alcohol. I just can't deal with it anymore, I cannot keep doing this to myself. I've gone through enough hurt with you, I don't want a lifetime of it.

How well do you know this Dave character? How can I trust he is taking care of my girl? I hate the fact that he is even taking my place. That should be me, not some douche bag you hardly know!

He's far from a douche bag.

I miss you Courtney...

hey i read your quote about your son (i favd it) and its not your fault. the baby that your expecting isnt too soon and you shouldnt be sorry the new baby who might just be your first one coming back to you and your life :) if you need me im here for you

It's fine babe

My new hurr style ;D

hi :D witty is being dumb so i cant blow up your notifications -.-
BUT I SHALL GIVE YOU ONE!!;

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH COURTNEY YOU'RE AMAZING AND MY OLDER SISTER!! I WILL LIVE AT YOUR HOUSE AND YOU WILL NEVER GET RID OF ME!! MWUHAHAHA. DONT FORGET TO SEND ME A NICE UK BOY.

kthxbye(:

hahaha thank you! yeah I have some plans for today but as soon as theyre finished I'm gonna add more :)

I luff yew too babe[:

Hewow :DD Im so happy im a godmommy, well, a cyber godmommy...BUT IT STILL COUNTS :D

Haay girl (;

Are you mad at me?

Nononono -_- But I luff yewz too (;

You! Find Repo! The Genetic Opera and watch it dammit -_-

i saw it last night and cried like a baby. people where staring at me funny because make-up was running down my face. im the kind of person who goes all out for premieres lol (slytherin makeup, slytherin shirt and tie, slytherin sweatshirt) my childhood is gone too :(

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Please please please favorite. It would mean the world to me. I don't know what I would do without this girl. Your favorite could save a life.

IKR?! And my profile picture is supposed to be the snake tattoo, my sister drew it on my arm while we waited in line to see the movie xD