XSamiHammieX

Status:
Joined: February 7, 2010
Last Seen: 8 years
user id: 100680

And the truth, is you could slit my throat,
& with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt...

Image and video hosting by TinyPic

They call me Sam.
You should sing to me on October 25th
New Jersey's where it's at.
Single♥

I like to meet new people so..
Drop a comment?
Give me your name for Facebook?
http://sammthecreator.tumblr.com/
So, you know how we do(;

Wanna know a little about me?
I'm a New York Giants fan all the way.♥
I love most sports, football especially.
I love my friends to death.
I love the beach.
Oh, and I have a masters degree in sarcasm[;

I have trust issues.
I hate relationships.
I do not, and never will, give second chances.
I like to give advice so if you need any I'm here!
And I'll listen to you without judging.
Everyone deserves that, right?♥

I love Jess (loveinthesummer), my Witty bestfriend! She's like my long lost sister, she's gonna be my brides maid one day and she's 100% irreplaceable. And she's an amazing writer! I swear, she's the sister I've always wanted, oh and she's absolutely gorgeous. She's is absolutely hysterical, too, which is always a plus in a bestfriend. She's a bitch and she's an amazing advice giver, too. Wanna know another thing about her? Even if she's a bitch she can be the sweetest girl you'll ever talk to. It's crazy how much alike we are, and how many boy problems and jokes we have, as well as memories. I feel like I've known her my whole life. You'll love her! So, go look her up [after you're done here of course.(; ], follow her, comment her, you know how it goes, right?♥

My favorite bands/artists;
Drake.
Red Hot Chili Peppers.
Taking Back Sunday.
Mayday Parade.
Sublime.
Weezer.
A Day To Remember.
Blink 182.


Dear future boyfriend,
                   I wish you so much luck with me.. I'll be really shy and quiet at first, but  please don't give up on me. I have loads of trust issues, and they're not going to go away. I hate other girls. I hate commitment, so if I'm in a relationship with you then you better know you're God damn special. I get jealous relatively easy. I'm a pushover. I won't ever say "sorry" first. Call me in the middle of the day just to hear my voice. I'm afraid to go farther than kissing. Don't make me try anything I'm not ready for. I hate being forced into things. I'm stubborn. I want to hear about your past girlfriends, but not too much about them. I'm nothing like other girls. I won't do what you tell me to, so don't bother telling me what to do. Tell me when I'm doing something you don't like. Don't be a dick about things that bug you though. Tell me if you need help with something. Don't act like you know it all. Cuddle with me. Hang out at my house with me if I'm sick (which never happens anyway). Call me before I go to sleep just to tell me cute things, and so I can fall asleep knowing your voice was the last one I heard. Tell me I'm your one and only, even if it's only for a little. I'm going to make mistakes. We will have arguments. Even if I'm wrong, let me think I'm right just for my own satisfaction. I'll cry and try to shut you out. When I say "I'm fine", tell me I'm not. Kiss me in front of your friends. Don't let me pretend everything is okay. Kiss me in the rain. Kiss me when I'm sad. Kiss  me in the middle of my sentence. Kiss me when I'm (especially if I'm mad at you). Make me talk about my feelings, even though I'll fight you on it. Tell me I'm beautiful, but don't drown me in compliments, because I will never believe any of them. Please don't lie to me, I hate not knowing things. Don't ever cheat on me. Don't tell me you love me unless you mean it. I'm not going to believe you when you compliment me. I'm full of insecurities and doubts. God luck with me, really. I'll try to pretend everything is okay even though everyone knows it's not. Dear future boyfriend, I'm going to fall  head over heels, and end up hopelessly and completely in love with you, so please don't break my heart, because it's still mending..♥
Love, me

Good luck, you have to deal with all that, and more.♥

She said she wanted to get high, so he took her to the tallest hill in town. She said she wanted to stay up all night & drink, so he gave her a 12 pack of caffeinated soda and said "Drink Up." She said she wanted to shoot herself in the face, so he gave her a water gun and let her pull the trigger. She said she wanted to cut herself, so he took a Polaroid picture of her face and let her cut it up. She said she wanted to cry herself to sleep, so he had her watch a sad and romantic movie before bed. She said that she wanted to be alone, so he gave her a name tag that said "Hello, my name is Alone." She said that she wanted someone to be there to take care of her, so he asked when he wasn't.♥


This is probably my favorite quote ever-

"So you want to kill yourself?
Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you. Right?
No.
Think about your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body.
You think they won't care?
They will. And they'll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you're fooling around.
Then they'll start shaking you. Why aren't you breathing? 
They'll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears than you ever shed.
Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears. Pain. Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day. Guilt. More guilt.
What about your bestfriends? They're not going to care. Right?
No. 
What's the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you're not alive. While your bestfriend sits there in tears.
That girl that you'd smile at but never talk to? She's now crying.
The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you?
He'll be shocked. He'll be devastated. He'll blame himself.
What about your teacher?
Thoughts crossing her mind. She'll question if you did it because she didn't make school comfortable enough for you.
Pain. Devastation. All in one. 
Who organises your funeral?
Who has to go through your stuff? Clothes? Notes?
Those few older girls who used to give you daggers at school?
They'll feel regret. 
They'll blame themselves. 
See, if you killed yourself today, you'll never know what might of happened tomorrow. 
You'll  never know because you're dead.
Plain dead. Not breathing. Not alive. Just dead.
Your family hates themselves for it.
Your bestfriend then falls into depression.
Tears. Tears. More tears than a river.
All because you killed yourself because you thought no one would care.
Right?
You are loved. By many.
Someone right now is thinking of you.
And right now, I'm thinking about anyone who has thought or is considering suicide.
You are beautiful.
No matter if you're black, white, gay, tall, short, overweight or anorexic.
You are beautiful.
You want to kill yourself?
Think about it first. There's no coming back.
And I promise, if you do it, you are not only hurting yourself, you are hurting many.
You are creating more tears than you led yourself to.
You are making everyone miserable and making them all feel guilt and pain.
Never will they feel whole like they used to when they had you.
You. Are. Beautiful.
And you are never ever alone."

"Mirror, mirror
lie to me
show me things i wish to see"

 
And that's just the begining of my story..

If you read this entire thing, I fucking love you.
Surprisingly I wrote alot..(;

                   
;           

Comments to XSamiHammieX

Sign in to leave a comment.

Steve 5 years ago
show buttons

Welcome! Let me know if you need help. I made this site.
reply
xxalyssadanaexx 9 years ago
show buttons

no problemo :) haha soo hows life??
reply
xxalyssadanaexx 9 years ago
show buttons

Heyyyy im alyssa danae :)
but yhu can call me danae! I think yhur picture is jus bout da cutest thing in da world! Jus hadda put dat out thereeeee! Ummm yeah so yhu seem legit. Hmu :)
reply
iLoveHimForeverAndAlways 9 years ago
show buttons

Are you ever gonna finish that story?
reply
mia12345 9 years ago
show buttons

andrew
reply
sarahthecow 9 years ago
show buttons

hey! sorry for the late comment, i've been superrr busy /: i'm glad i made you laugh c': it wasn't even geared towards comedy, yet i've been getting that a lot :D it made me happy, too, haha. but it really pxssed me off when the quote was changed! there was nothing wrong with it; just stating the truth.
but you're welcomeee♥ (:
reply
WatchTheStars 9 years ago
show buttons

Thanks for following me♥
reply
ImNotWorthYourTime 1 decade ago
show buttons

actually really good
reply
itsallie0x 1 decade ago
show buttons

i love you profile desig, and your really pretty!
reply
ImNotWorthYourTime 1 decade ago
show buttons

I'll come on wednesday night for you, okay?
reply
ImNotWorthYourTime 1 decade ago
show buttons

Thank you sam. I'll tell you whats happened on wednesday
reply
ImNotWorthYourTime 1 decade ago
show buttons

im so so scared about it&& im taking my laptop so yeah, i have to go wednesday
reply
ImNotWorthYourTime 1 decade ago
show buttons

well, yeah
my dads booking me into a mental health unit and im really scared
reply
ImNotWorthYourTime 1 decade ago
show buttons

its really hard
reply
ImNotWorthYourTime 1 decade ago
show buttons

I have server bipolar, i just feel like dying
reply
ImNotWorthYourTime 1 decade ago
show buttons

i feel so bad today, i've been crying for hours, i feel really horrible
reply
Ralph* 1 decade ago
show buttons

Ahhh! Well, I'm feeling pretty special now! =]
reply
Ralph* 1 decade ago
show buttons

Aahaha! That's okay! &&I thought I was the only one in the world born on that day, just because no one has said anything to me!
Hahaha‚ô•
reply
dont_judge_me 1 decade ago
show buttons

haah thanks :)
reply
jessxsmile 1 decade ago
show buttons

not sure who my 600th follower was :S
but thank you so much for following!
reply