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Have you ever just sat there, sat there and thought about everything. Are you happy with your life? Is this what you want? Thought about everything. and come to find out you don't really know if this is what you want your life to be... 

Everyone says you're playing me, but i don't want to and can't believe it... </3

I finally got him. After months and months of trying to get him back... and to be honest, i dont think i want him anymore....

To be accepted by other people is what everyone wants now a days. I just want to accept myself..

and today was the first day that he actually looked me straight in the eyes since everything went down... i wonder if he was thinking what i was thinking... i wonder if he felt that things bewteen us weren't over...

and the sadest part is, he know's how much he means to me and he doesn't care..

i know the feeling. when he suddenly says he is over you and on to another girl. it feels like someone has punched you in the stomach. you suddenly can't breath anymore. and then the tears start coming and don't stop. finally when you do stop you have forgotten what happened because you didn't want to remember. once it all starts coming back to you. once you remember his exacts words, "im done with you. she treats me better than you ever would" you start to hyproventilate. the one guy who told you that you meant everything to him the day before has found someone better than you could ever be. you feel numb. you feel nothing, but the feeling that someone had punch you in the stomach. everything else around you is numb. you can't hear anything but you crying and your heart breaking into a million little pieces. yeah, i know that feeling. i have had this feeling every day for 8 months now. you just learn how to deal with it.

Dear his new girlfriend,
                i ask one thing of you, to give him everything i couldn't. Hug him, kiss him, spend each and every day with him. Don't let the fear of losing him keep you from giving all you can give. Know that he loves when you text him first once and a while. He loves when you wear his sweatshirt. he loves when you proudly say "yes he is my boyfriend." know that when he hugs other girls it doesn't mean anything. it only means something when he's hugging you. tell him he smells good. go to his hockey games. wear his extra jersey to the game and cheer for him as loud as you can. let him see you without make up on. let him tell you that you look beautiful without any on and believe it. he really means it. fool around with him. try to beat him at everything you play. dont make him let you win. hold his hand in public and hold it with pride. don't get caught up with the fact that such an amazing guy likes a girl like you. don't get caught up with what everyone  else is saying about him liking another person. trust him with everything you have. but most of all DON'T LET HIM WALK AWAY FROM YOU.

From,
the girl who is heartbroken at what he did, but still totaly inlove with him.

and at the end of the day i just want YOU to be happy, even if that means im not with you.... 

She's the girl who gave her heart to a stupid
               boy who played it like
                           a toy