XxXaliciaXxX94

Status:
Joined: December 22, 2011
Last Seen: 5 years
Birthday: November 29
user id: 254369
Gender: F
Name: Alicia Robertson
Age: 21
Status: Taken <3
Orientation: Lesbian ;)

I have my ups and downs, many of them in fact. I've been through hell and back I guess you could say. Life is life, just have to live it and move on in the end. Oh well. It is what it is and I'm learning to deal with it now. I'm a lesbian and proud. I've been hurt a million and one times and it honestly sucks. I'm still madly in love with my ex, Ashley, She hurt me bad. But I'm not giving up. I will get her back one day.


I have went through my share of hard times. I'm a suicidal child and have finally stopped my self harm. Temptations are still there but I'm trying to get better. If anyone ever needs someone to talk to I'm here. I'm understanding and great with advice. I've been through a lot, probably more than you. But her, that doesn't truly matter. It is just showing you that I can help you.


STAY STRONG GUYS! I LOVE YOU ALL! <3 

Quotes by XxXaliciaXxX94

MY GUY SIDE:

You love hoodies. [x]
You love jeans. [x]
Dogs are better than cats. [x]
It's hilarious when people get hurt. [x]
You've played with/against boys on a team. [x]
Shopping is torture. [x] sometimes.
Sad movies suck. [x]
You own/ed an X-Box. [x]
Played with Hot wheel cars as a kid. [x]
At some point in time you wanted to be a fire-fighter. [x]
You own/ed a DS, PS2 or Sega. [x]
You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers. [x]
You watch sports on TV. [x]
Gory movies are cool. [x]
You go to your dad for advice. [x]
You own like a trillion baseball caps. []
You like going to high school football games. [x]
\You used to/do collect football/baseball cards. [x]
Baggy pants are cool to wear. [x]
It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. [x]
Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favourite colours.[x]
You love to go crazy and not care what people think. [x]
You think sports are fun. [x]
Talk with food in your mouth. [x]
Sleep with your socks on at night. [x]
Total: 24

MY GIRL SIDE:

You wear lip gloss/stick. []
You love to shop. []
You wear eyeliner. []
You wear the colour pink. []
Go to your mom for advice. []
You consider cheerleading a sport. []
You hate wearing the colour black. []
You like hanging out at the mall. [x]
You like getting manicures and/or pedicures. []
You like wearing jewellery. []
Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe. []
Shopping is one of your favourite hobbies. []
You don't like the movie Star Wars. []
You were in gymnastics/dance. [x]
It takes you around/ more one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up. []
You smile a lot more than you should. [x]
You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. [x]
You care about what you look like. [x]
You like wearing dresses when you can. []
You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne. [x]
You love the movies. [x]
Used to play with dolls as little kid. [x]
Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy/joke of it. [x]
Like being the star of everything. []
Total: 8
I just don't get it. I'm dating someone who is transgendered. They want me to call them a he and go by the name of Jake or Jacob. I am totally okay with this too. But when it comes to my aunt. She refuses to take me to meet up with him and yells at me constantly. She keeps telling me how wrong it is and how I'm making a mistake. But I'm truly not. He is human too and deserves love. How can I get through to her? I seriously need some help explaining this to her and showing her it isn't a bad thing or a mistake....
Am I ever going to get you back? Like really now....
Don't just say yes to make me happy....
It won't help me get better at all....
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I don't think you guys will even read this or give me any feedback but yea. I need to get this out. . . . .

Seriously!

If you were a true friend like you sat here and told me you would stand by me no matter what. You wouldn't care about my past with someone. You would just care if I was happy or not. Forget the fact that she hurt me bad. She has changed! You guys don't know her like I do. I'm the one who is in love with her! Way to stick beside me no matter what! Forget everything. I thought we were supposed to be best friends and sisters. But now i'm annoyed. She is my true love. She is the one I want to be with one day again. I'm sorry if you don't like it. But to hang up and not text me at all because of you not liking that I will be with her again is just downright wrong. I'm sorry that I tend to love the people who hurt me the most. If she didn't love me she wouldn't be coming to live here soon and she wouldn't have sent me the ring that I just got. And the random roses at school because I was having a terrible day. What is ment to be will happen. No matter if you approve or not. Just sit back and think. You not approving and not talking to me isn't going to change my feelings for her or my choice of being with her again eventually. It just annoys me. I will do what I want. And if I do get hurt again? Well then it isn't meant to be. But I know I won't. Just let me be happy!

Sorry for venting guys. I just needed an out. Love you all!

Seriously...

Stay out of my relationship! Just because I didn't chose you and chose her instead does not give you any right to flirt with her and try to get with her. Oh especially since you have a girlfriend already. BACK OFF! I'm so done with all of this. I'm sitting in my computer class trying to not cry and flip. I will probably cut when I get home...

I can't keep any of this in anymore!
Guys... I seriously need some help...

I don't know what to do. I am in a relationship with this girl in my school right now. But... I am truly not happy with her any longer.. I don't know what to do about it. She is crazy about me. She says she loves me. And I can tell she does. But I don't. I'm still hung up over my ex. I'm still sooo in love with her. And my gf now knows this. But I just can't deal with her any longer. Her true colors are really shining through. They are not like they were in the begining. I'm afraid to break it because she is a great person and a great gf. But she isn't the one for me. She does everything right. Even treats me right. But I can't anymore. What do I do?? She is going to Florida next week with me for spring break... I can't do anything about it right now. But I will have to soon. But I would greatly appreciate if you guys can help me out a little with what to do and say.
March 11, 2013

     Well guys, I have been almost stable for a little while now. I'm proud of myself to say the least. I'm not truly happy and not sure if I ever will be. But that's okay with me. I'll just live my life day to day as I am now. I'm not self harming anymore. I've wanted to many many times. But I know I can't. I've almost went back to the hospital a few times for being suicidal. Things will be ok soon. At least I hope.

     But, I have a slight problem. I currently have a girlfriend. But, I'm not truly happy with her anymore. I am still madly in love with my ex even though she hurt me really bad. But I can't have her back just yet. She is still in a relationship with the girl she cheated on me with. It truly sucks so bad to love someone you can't have. Also, i've managed to fall for another girl as well. Now I have no clue what to do. This is all so complicated.

     Maybe i'll come on here more often and write instead of just fav things. Venting actully feels good right now.


     Sorry guys!

    
I'm 62%

obsessed with my

looks.


I own:
[x] hair straightener
[] curling iron
[] mousse
[x] hairspray
[x] gel
[x] other sprays
[] bobby pins
[] hair clips
[x] hair ties
[] round barrel brush
[x] blow dryer
[x] mirror
[x] I have dyed my hair
[x] I have/had highlights
Eyes: I own
[x] black eyeliner
[x] other color eyeliner
[x] eye shadow
[x] mascara
[] fake eyelashes
[] eyelash curler
[x] eye shimmer
[] contacts
[] stunna shades
[] eye makeup remover

Lips/Teeth: I own
[x] clear lip gloss
[x] red or pink lip gloss
[x] lipstick
[x] chap stick
[] lip plumper
[x] electric toothbrush
[x] teeth whitener
[x] more than 15 lip glosses
[x] toothpaste
Complexion/Overall Face: I own
[x] blush
[x] moisturizer
[x] face wash
[] bronzer
[] makeup remover
[x] face wipes
[x] powder
[x] cover up
[] blotting papers
Nails:
[x]nail polish/varnish
[] filer
[x] cuticle remover
[x] nail hardener
[] nail brush
[] fake nails
[] nail scissors
[] special scissors to cut your nials


OVERALL TOTAL: 31
Now multiply your number by 2
Then repost as I am __% obsessed with my looks
HARRY POTTER
[] Your hair is dark and can be messy.
[] You wear glasses.
[X] You have a weird looking scar.
[x] You are brave.
[x] You have green eyes
[X] your in to a partualier type of sport
Total:
4


RON WEASLEY
[] You have red hair.
[x] You are very loyal to your friends.
[X] You are deathly afraid of spiders.
[x] You are sarcastic.
[x ]You don’t have a lot of money.
[X] You have older siblings.
Total: 5


HERMIONE GRANGER
[x] You are bossy.(sometimes)
[x] You are intelligent.
[x] Your hair is wavy or curly.
[x] You have/had a cat.
[x] You usually know how to handle tricky situations.
[x] You get made fun of a lot.
[] You can’t draw
Total: 6


RUBEUS HAGRID
[] You are tall.
[x] You are very friendly and soft hearted.
[x] You love animals.
[x] You are very helpful.
[] You give in easily.
[x] You are very loyal.
Total: 4


LUNA LOVEGOOD
[x] You are weird and proud of it.
[x] You don’t have loads of friends.
[x] You are a bit ditzy.
[x] You are open minded.
[] You are quite spiritual.
[x] You believe in things most people wouldn't.
Total: 5


DRACO MALFOY
[] You are manipulative.

[x] You can be very mean when you want to be.
[] You are a snob.(i guess around certain people)
[x] You can get jealous.
[x] You have blonde hair.
[] You enjoy pranks. As long as they don’t hurt anyone.
Total: 3


NEVILLE LONGBOTTOM
[x] You are close to your grandparents.
[x] You are plump.
[x] You are easily frightened.
[x] You get nervous easily.
[] You like frogs and toads.
[] You are geeky.
Total: 4


Hermoine Granger ;D
December 17th, 2012

     Well, things are finally looking up for me. I have now been out of the in-patient psychiatric hospital and Partial program for 2 months. I haven't self harmed in about a month. My eating disorders are slowly getting better, set aside from my recent relapse. I have a new gf now. She makes me happy. Treats me like a princess. No one has ever treated me this wonderful like she does. Maybe someone will be able to treat me right for the whole time they are with me. And hopefully... just hopefully... NOT cheat on me and drive me back into my old habbits.