Okaay, so
..
Today,
i just really
need to
vent.
I
really just do.
my dad isnt even coming to my f*cking graduation. the one day
that i really
just want to see my dad. but no. he cant. he doesn give two
sh*ts about me,
my sister, brother, and other sister. best part is, im still
depressed about
how my parents got divorced when i was 10 months old. i cant
get that sh*t
out of my head, how he just cheated on my mother and left my
mom with no
money. oh yeah, im have money issues now. my mom literally
has no money
on her. none. just enough to get by right now. did i mention
how im getting
bullied right now? yeah, all the time. since 3rd grade.
lovely right?
there are so many rumors going around right now about me,
that i dont even
know. ohh and my lovely birthday is in 11 days. june 14th.
think my
dad remembers? nope. not one year did he call to say happy
birthday.
i cry almost everyday about everthing he did to me. he hurt
me like hell.
i dont live with my brother or oldest sister. just my 17 year
old sister and mom.
my sister is treating me sometimes as if i dont exist. she
blames me for
everything.
i try everything i could do just so that she can talk to
me.
i cut myself at least 27 times today. maybe more. im gonna
count tomorrow,
when they show up and are more visual. the best news i
got so far
was that its not gonna be hot this week, and i can cover up
my arms.
i feel like im f*cking alone right now.
i just dont know what to do with myself.
just dont fave if you dont want to.
i just needed to vent. thanks if you read everything.
i doubt you did, but i just really needed to vent.
bye.