This sounds so dumb but I feel so awful about myself that I want a
puppy. I want a little gut who I can run with, who doesn't care
about looks, and who will always love me. I feel so ugly and
unloved and hated! I got called pretty a week ago by a guy and it
meant the world to me. It was at fornightly and he said I looked so
pretty. I felt amazing. Then today I got called ugly and that
confidence I've had this past week died. Now I want to dye my
hair and pile on make up so I look like those girls that are
considered pretty. I wont do that though. It isn't me. Why do I
do this to myself? Why do people do this to me? Why can't
people be nice and not hate on each other. I thought things were
going better this year they are not. My best friend is leaving me
slowly but surely for the popular group I'm getting bullied
again and I have no drive to do my school work. I want to move far
away so I don't have to deal with people. Why can't I love
myself? I need help. Serious serious help. I can't get it
though, I don't want to dissapoint mom. Why was I born like
this? Why did I allow other people to destroy my life. WHY
CAN'T I GET BETTER?
Thanks to those that read this crazy
vent