_BrokenDreams_

I lay broken tonight, today
Hope you're happy tonight, today
I weep all eve and night and day
My heart will break in newest ways
I am gone tonight, today
From your heart tonight, today
I hold you close through sun and rain
In my heart through gniht and day

Mark another next to the first
Line of past and present traverse
I've screwed up once and now again
Seems I haven't learned from then
Stupid me, stupid heart
Lying to me in the dark
Stupid mind, stupid thoughts
She was all that I still got
Mad at me, break me down
Watch in smiles as I still drown
Blame just me and bliss will come
Till you find out, you were my only one

I held you close and whispered goodbye
Kissed your soft cheek as you still cried
I turned to go with tears in my own
Now I know how it is to be alone
I took a step and walked a mile
Too far away now to see your smile
But I hope you are however you feel
Know I'll come back and what I told you is real
"I'll miss right now and until we meet
I love you forever where ever we be
Just close your eyes and whisper my name
And I'll come right back, to take all your pain"
I'll walk till forever in search of it all
When I never knew I didn't have to go far
Because everything I wanted, everything I knew
Everything I could love, was waiting inside you.

I gave up my life
So you can live yours again
I stopped all the world
To make you happy again
I fell into your eyes
I got lost for forever
I closed mine
And dreamt we were together
I paused all of life
Just to ask why
You take away breaths
But have tears in your eyes

I gave you sun
You gave me rain
I hugged you warm
You bled me pain
You let us go
But I still held on
Now, baby can you tell me
What the hell went wrong?

It never happens to the uncaring
And it always leaves the caring broken.

Every day I come home dying
How could this be so hard?
I cover my eyes as I start crying
Cause you're still in my heart
You know I didn't mean a thing to you
So why do I still care?
Why does it only hurt me?
I guess cause life's not fair

Looking back I laugh at myself
"How could I let you go?..."
I convince myself I never loved you
"When you didn't even know.."
I smile wide and push it away
"I haven't smiled in years"
I tell myself I meant nothing
"The pain I bleed in tears"
I now know that I never cared
"You're still inside my heart"
I now know I never loved you
"You letting go was the hardest part"

Thoughts and Lies.

I don't know if you can read this
But here it is anyway
I never had the chance to tell you
All I have to say
I love you, girl, with all my heart
I'd give my life to you
I'm sorry for the pain I've caused
And all I've put you through
I know I was wrong, I have to admit
But losing you is worse than death
I'll cry out every one of these words
Till my last aching breath
I hold you in dreams
And save you in nightmares
I can look into your eyes
And smell your amazing hair
I can remember your face now
It's no longer so dark
And each time you smile
It warms up my heart
I hope that someday
Sooner than now
That'd you could forgive me
Someway, somehow

I lay down on my bed tonight
Wondering why I care
I needed you, I came for you
That's why I was there
I walked a mile in your shoes
A mile more in mine
I searched my heart, and your heart
But it's me I can't seem to find
I held you close and whispered truth
And said solemn goodbyes
But anything I hear from you
Are lies that bleed and die.