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Two Different Worlds

Chapter 131

"We need to talk."I said closing the door behind me. He walked over to me.
"I heard what you said back there. All of it."He responded to me.
"I know."I said back.
"No strings attached, Mai? There's strings! There's millions of strings!"He said to me.
"It's over Conrad. I just can't do this anymore. I don't like complications. If somethings wrong, you gotta more on. No relationship will stay forever."I said to him.
"Is that the only option for you? That... that... That every relationship has to end? That it won't last. Ever?" he said.
"Pretty much. You'll more on to some other girl just like Courtney has always said and John told me to."I replied.
"So this is about Court? And John? What did John say?"He asked.
"No, that's not what it's about. And It's doesn't matter what he said."I replied.
"But it does. It does matter."He responded.
"Not anymore Con." I said back.
"Court's only saying stuff because-"He started.
"I don't care! We're not on True Life or Jerry Springer. I don't want to hear your life story and you sure as hell don't want to hear mine."I said.
"I do though!"He said.
"I'm making this easier on both of us. The sooner it ends, the less it will hurt."I replied.
"But I want to hear your life story. Don't you get that? I don't want to be in this for a few months. That's not how I work with relationships."He said. I stared straight ahead. 
"What are you scared of anyways? That you may actually love me? Really love me?"He asked.
"I'm not afraid. We already have gone over how love isn't really real Con. I've seen from other relationships. This is just how it has to be."I said to him.
"So basically you just want to pretend this, all of this, didn't happen. That we never happened? I mean we don;t have to end like this. This doesn't have to happen, so why are you making it happen?"He said. Sh*t how is a person supposed to respond to sh*t like this?
"Because I know. I know that every relationship will end. This one wont last just like the others wont last."I said.
"You know what I think?"He asked.
"No and I don't want to know Con-."I said.
"I think for the first time in your life, you actually love someone and they love you back. And that you don't know hoe to act of feel about it. That for the first time in your life, you actually are in love with someone and the idea of that scared you."He responded, ignoring me.
"Conrad, you're only making this harder for yourself."I said.
"No. I'm trying to fix-"He began.
"Conrad, we are over. It's done. You can't fix it."I cut him off.
"Done? We can't just be done at the snap of your fingers, Mai. I'm literally in love with you. I sound so weird for saying all this sh*t too. Do you know how hard this is for me? To actually say the sh*t I'm feeling? I love you and you are the only one I have ever actually said that to. I've been dating you for a short time and I know it and say it. I dated a girl once for  over a year and never said this to her because, I didn't feel it for her. But I do, I feel it for you. I wouldn't say it unless it was true. And that scares you. But, I know you love me too."He said.  I shook my head.
"That's exactly it. You can't actually love me Con. You only think you do. We've only been dating for a short time. You can't love a person in such a short time."I said.
"Maison, how can f*cking time measure feelings? It doesn't matter how long you've been with someone for you to love them. Feelings are feelings. You know that Keegon and Jordan are your best friends and you love them and have only known them for a short while. It's the same for us."He said. I knew what he was saying and what I was saying were both true. But I also know it isn't the  whole truth. 
"Conrad. I'm a b*tch, I'm a slob. I'm mean. I'm insecure. I have a f*cked up family. I'm screwed up and I don't believe in love like you do. Just forget me Conrad. Just give up."I said.
"I'm not gonna give up Maison. You can't just throw me away."He replied.
"You see this is exactly the problem with relationships. We should all get close enough to have fun but not get attached enough to get hurt. It ends okay that way." I said.
"How can you say that."He replied.
"Conrad, you went out with plenty of other girls before me. You'll go out with plenty of girls after as well. Courtney told me her story and stories of other girls. Plenty of girls came to me and told me their stories about you when I started dating you. I will be replaced like the others. It was only time that would tell."I said.
"Maison, I went out with half those other girls because of what happened with Veronica. I felt like complete sh*t after that and wanted to be happy again. I had been trying to find happiness in the other girls. But no one has made me feel like you do Mai. I honestly love you."He said.
"Love... Love, love, love. It's good for absolutely nothing. It's only a word."I said.
"It's more than just a word. You came along into my life and I felt some many different things, other than just love. This can't be over Maison."He said.
"You sound like a character out of a Shakespeare play."I said.
"Look me in the eyes and tell me."He said.
"Tell you what?"I asked.
"Tell me you don't like me. That you don't love me. That this has meant nothing to you."He said.
"I don't love you and this meant nothing to me."I said. He looked shocked. It did mean something though...
"You know, we could have been so big. We could have made it longer. I could have made you fall in love. We could have been the couple everyone wants to be. We could have been something. Something huge. Like in those songs, movies, or books. We really could have been something big..."He said.
"Maybe Con, but we're not."I said.
"But Mai, we still can me."He said back.
"You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy. Somebody who's not gonna complicate your life. Soembody who won't hurt you."I said.
"Mai, you make me happy. I don't care if your complicated."He said.
"I'm sorry, but I'm done."I said.
"But, you can't be serious."He said.
"No I am serious Conrad. This is it. It's over. Go. Leave. Don't call me."I said.
"Just hear me out."He said.
"Goodbye Conrad."I said walking inside my house.
"Mai, Wait."He called out. I went inside and laid in my bed. I heard his car start and him leave.

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Chapter 130

I started walking home. I was planning on breaking up with him anyways. It just sucks that he had to hear me like that. John made a valid point though. I was only his current girlfriend. Not his last girlfriend. There will be a next because there always is. The time would have eventually came anyways. Besides, I was only doing this for Courtney. Even if she is a b*tch. I was doing this for the other girls he had f*cked over. I don't need a boyfriend. I go through so many of them anyways, like at my last school. I walk to my door and it's locked. Sh*t. I knock a few times but no one answers. The lights on. i look in the garage. Dad's car isn't in there. Sh*t, sh*t, sh*t! I left my wallet with my key at Keegon's house. Maybe the back door was open... This isn't my night. I walk around to my backyard and the door was unlocked. Thank God. I went inside and sat down at the computer. I changed my profile picture to one of Jordan and myself. Then, I ended the relationship online. It was only one of my many ended relationships. I saw more pictures of my old boyfriend and best friend together from my old school. Figures they're still together. They really did deserve each other.  They had never really been there for me. In fact, it was probably her thong that I had found in his room that night we had broken up. I sat down in my tv room to start watching any show really, and the doorbell rang. I got up and opened the door. It was Tommy. 
"Maison..."He said.
"Tommy, I really don't need to hear it."I said to him.
"Mai, I warned you about this."He said.
"I didn't mean to break up with him like this, but it's how it happened. There's nothing that will change my mind."I said.
"But Mai, you and I both knew that this was going to happen. Yet, you still did it. You still went out with him and led him on. I warned you not to. He's my best friend Mai. You knew he was sensitive, he shared things with you that he doesn't tell me and Clyde. He really liked you. How could you do this to him? At his own party too."He said.
"Tommy, I'm sorry. This won't ruin your friendship though. And, this shouldn't ruin our cousinship either. I'm still going to help you with Keegon. I'll still be mostly nice to Con. But, it's over."I said.
"We're family. I know it won't ruin that. And I know it won't ruin mine and Con's friendship. It's just the fact that i told you not to even bother with Conrad but, you did."He said.
"Look at it this way, whether I rejected him or broke up with him now he would still be upset. At least I made him happy for a little bit. Now go back to the party and talk to Keegon."I said.
"Fine. But be warned, Con's gonna want reasoning."He said. I knew he would. I waved bye and sat back in the tv room. I turned the lights off and just relaxed. I'm finally single again and don't need to worry about anyone else's feelings. After a little bit of watching tv,  I heard pebbles hitting the house. Oh God... I got up and looked through the peephole. I turned my back to the door and leaned on it. It was Con. I knew it would have been. Sh*t. There were a few more pebbles.  I should give him closure shouldn't I? I turn back around and look in the peephole again. He's still standing there leaning again his car. He's shaking the pebbles he has in his hands. He's about to throw another one when I open the door.

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Chapter 129

The week had flown by and Conrad was having a big party at his house with people from our school and his parents friends kids. His house was filled with people. I talked and mingled with a few people. I was hanging out with Tommy for a little bit. Then Conrad's friend John came up to me.
"So you and Conrad are together?"He asked.
"Yeah, for a little while now."I replied.
"He's kind of an as*hole. Why be with him?"John asked. Woah... Guess Johns not the biggest fan of Conrad. I remember John from the first party at Conrad's I had gone to. John was one of his parents friends kids.
"Well I guess he's not the biggest as*hole to me."I said back to him.
"Just wait for it. The time will come."He said. I didn't respond.
"So you and Con, huh?"He said again in disbelief. He laughed a little.
"Yeah... Me and Con. We just went over this."I replied.
"Yeah, it just fathoms me."He said taking a drink from his beer. "Good luck with that."
"What's that supposed to mean?"I asked.
"Hey, you guys have lasted pretty long but don't count on it much longer. There will be another girl soon. There always is. And you'll just go and disappear, just like the last."He said.
"Him and Court lasted awhile"I said to him.
"Ah Court.... Which one was that? The slutty one? Or that one brunette? Was she the blond surfer? Or maybe the singer.... Wait, she was the one with the belly button and nose ring right?"He asked.
"Yeah Court does have both of those. But she lasted for awhile."I said again.
"Yeah the five girl after that lasted for a little while too but it ended. Just like you will. I just thought you should know not to cling on to the relationship in case you were worried."He said.
"Ya know, I wasn't. But thanks, for that."I replied back.
"Anytime."He said back. This just proves that I shouldn't be trusting Conrad. Ever. What was I even thinking? I walked away and hung out with Jordan. Than I walked away to get a drink. It was 2 in the morning now and the party will probably end at 3.
While I was waiting for a drink my cousin, Christy, started talking to me.
"Hey how are you and Conrad doing lately? I haven't really seen you two together tonight."She said to me. I shrugged my shoulders. 
"To be honest, just between me and you, this isn't gonna last. Ya know. I mean I know it won't and he probably knows too. Soon we'll go on our own ways. Bam it's over. I mean, it's perfect. No complications what so ever. It's just a high school relationship after all.Just a little fling. No worries and no stings attached. If only everyone's relationships were this easy."I said with a smile.
"Really Mai? I thought you took a keen liking to Conrad. Are you sure about all that?"She said. At first I wasn't completely sure but it did come out easily and it sounded so true and right.
"You know what? i am sure. This is the surest I've been in a while. Ya know?"I said. Then her mouth dropped. Uh-oh. Behind me there was a person and behind that person, there was Conrad. I turned to him. He was staring sadly and in shock. Sh*t. I put my drink on the table and ran upstairs. Should I stay? Should I go? I think I'll go. It's probably best. He heard what I had to say. It's over. I walked outside. There were a few people out there. Keegon was one of them.
"Mai, where are you going? I thought you were gonna sleepover."She said.
"Oh no um... I actually gotta go home. But I'm uh, I'm gonna walk. It'll only take me a few minutes. I'll talk to you tomorrow or something."I said.
"Oh. Okay... Bye."She replied. 

Two Different Worlds

Chapter 128

I found my dad in the tv room. 

“Whatcha watching?”I asked him.

“Person of Interest.”He said.

“New or repeat?”I asked him.

“New.”He replied.

“How many minutes in?”I questioned.

“Eight.”He replied. Eight minutes in means I didn’t miss too much especially being that four minutes of it most likely were commercials. So I sat on the couch by him.

“You eat dinner already?”He asked.

“Yeah.”I replied. I didn’t. I’m seriously trying. I am. But, this is not something a person can get over easily. I wont just stop because someone tells me too. I’m trying my best not to throw up. I haven’t been able to work out recently. So, skipping meals here and there isn’t so bad. I’ll work out tomorrow. We watched Person of Interest and then The Mentalist. After they were over we went to sleep. The days passed by quickly and finally it was Saturday. I drove to Conrads house and picked him up.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!”I screamed to him. He smiled back.

“So where are we going?”He asked.

“It’s a surprise!”I said to him.

“It’s not a party right? Im not really feeling a blown out party.”He said to me.

“Trust me, you will love what we do today.”I replied to him. I started driving to the closest In n Out. I pulled into the parking lot and we went inside. As we walked inside he was surprised by Keegon, Tommy, Jordan, and Clyde. We all ordered, sat down, and ate. After eating, we went to the quading place. Conrad had a bandana tied around his head so he couldn’t see where we were going. We finally arrived at the place. There was a bunch of quads lined up. We all sat on our own and put helmets on. The leader led the way. We had gone to this cool little waterfall type thing and stayed there for a little. After that, we went to this beach that was empty except for few surfers and so beautiful. We stayed and swam there for a while. The scenery and pictures we took  were all so amazing. Eventually, we took the quads back and went back to Keegon’s house. At Keegon’s house we started to do the pinata. Clyde was the one to actually break the pinata and after he did,we all ran to get the candy. We hung out for the rest of the night and evantually we all went home.

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She stood up and followed me half way.
"Stop."She whispered.
"Why? So you can b*tch more?"I replied.
"No. What- What did he say? In the car?"She asked timidly.
"He said to me that he has been planning this visit for a while. A month. All to visit you. He was planning what to say and what to do. He didn't want to say the wrong thing to you. You know what he wanted? He wanted you to know that he is here for you. That he will always be here for you. The sweetest thing is that he said that you may not be perfect and there may not be a perfect, but you are perfect the way you were and could be again."I finished. She was crying.
"Did you even realize it was his birthday?"I asked. She walked to her bed and opened a drawer on the night stand next to it and pulled out something wrapped. 
"I couldn't forget. No matter how hard I tried. I got him something anyways. I figured I just wouldn't give it to him."She said.
"Kisten, I know as much as you do about how hard it is to get over this. I', still not. It's going to take a while but you, your actually getting medical help. Try your hardest. Not for me, not for you,and  not for you parents. Do it for Conrad and your younger sister. "I said. She closed her eyes and nodded her head once.
"Do you want me to help you brush your hair?"I asked realizing she was still holding the brush. SHe nodded her head. I gently started brushing it until it was all smooth with no knots. Pieces were falling out though.
"Your his girlfriend right?"She asked. 
"Mhm."I said.
"Good. It's good he has someone."She replied. Which made me feel bad all over again because it wont be much longer.
Conrad walked back to the room shortly after looking for me. His eyes red. Veronica slowly walked towards him. She looked weak. He took a step back away from her nervous at first. She wrapped her arm around him and hugged him. His face looked confused and shocked but he wrapped his arms around her and lifted her up.
"I missed you."She said to him.
"Me too."He replied. I told them I was going to wait outside and let them talk. A little bit alter Conrad came out of the door.
"You look rejuvenated."I said to him.
"Yeah well that helped a lot."He said.
"That's good Con, I'm so happy for you." I replied with a smile.
"Me too. Thanks Mai."He said back.
"You ready?"I asked. He shook his head yes. I looked back into his sisters room and she looked out to us. She rose her hand a little and gave a weak wave to me. Conrad looked back after.
"I'll see you soon Ronnie, okay?"He asked. She shook her head yes. With that I started walking away and he followed. We were mostly quiet on the way home. Just a few words here and there. I feel bad looking at him. He's so happy now. But soon I am only going to ruin it all. We get to my house and he gives me a tight hug.
"Thank you Maison. For coming with me today and for whatever you said to her." He said to me. I hugged him back and gave him a kiss on the cheek and went into my house. I 

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 The receptionist let us go up to her room with a pass. She was sitting on her bed and just came back from group. We walked in the room and she just stared at Conrad with a blank stare. He grabbed my hand and squeezed it.

“Hey Veronica.  How have you been?”He asked timidly.

“What are you doing here?”She asked.

“Well I came to visit you. Did you read any of my letters?”He said.

“ You think I would read those? Did I ask you to visit? Did I ask you to write?”She asked narrowing her eyes.

“No...”He replied.

“That’s right. No I did not. Because I do not want to see you. I don’t want to talk to you. Ever. I don’t want you to visit me. I do not want you in my life. You did this, you put me here. It's your fault.”She said.

“Veronica can we just talk? Please?”He said, his voice shaking. He let go of my hand.

“F*ck you a*shole. Just f*cking leave. You wanna visit me. Huh? Well you wouldn’t have to visit me if you never told.”She snapped at him. He started taking steps backwards towards the door.

“I hate you! Leave, leave, leave!”She yelled. With that he turned and ran to the hallway with his eyes watered. I stared in shock. Sh*t what am I supposed to do now? She turned away and grabbed a brush. Her hair was thin and limp. She tried to brush it but hit a knot and could not bring the brush any lower. She turned back towards me. 

“What are you still doing here.” She asked me shooting daggers at me. I stared at her in disbelief.

“Just leave. Go with him and leave. You f*cking little barbie.”She yelled at me. I walked up to her.

Two Different Worlds

Chapter 124

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Chapter 123

Monday and Tuesday passed by pretty quickly. Then, came Wednesday. 

"I'm visiting her for my birthday." He said to me on the drive over.

"How far away is it from here?"I asked.

"Like an hour and a half."He answered. We've only been driving 45 minutes so we have a little longer to go.

"Are you nervous?"I asked him.

"No. Yeah. I mean I don't know. I just don't know how she's exactly doing or what she's going to say to me or to you. I just, I haven't seen her in so long that I wanted to visit. My parents don't know. It's like a birthday present to myself I guess. I just really want to see her. I want to help her."He said taking his eyes off the road to look at me.

"Con, you can't help everyone."I replied.

"I can try though. Someone has to."He replied.

"Your gonna go far in life Con. Real far."I said.

"I can't tell if you're being sarcastic or not."He said laughing.

"I'm serious. Your so compassionate towards people and you strive to help other people."I said seriously. He smiled.

"Atleast someone see's me like that."He said.

"What's that supposed to mean?"I asked.

"Well the guys make fun of me for sh*t like that sometimes but in no harm. My parents on the other hand, they don't even notice. They're too involved in their own worlds to maybe realize my little sister is having boy trouble or friend trouble and is upset. Or to realize my grandma really needed to get her legs checked out because she has a hard time standing sometimes. They don't realize that I'm the one who took Gram to the hospital and talked with the doctor about her getting these shots that'll help her. Epiduorols. They don't realize that I'm the one who got my sister to stop crying after weeks because her friend basically ended their friendship. They don't realize I'm the one who gave her advice to find a new friend and one who's worthwhile. Guess what, my sister's friend came crawling back to her too. You know what my sister did? She took the friend back. It was because I told her that even when people closest to us hurt us we do need to let them back in because they were and always will be a big part of our lives. I told her just don't make them as important of a part and don't let them walk over you anymore. Don't expect anything form them but be there for them. My parents only see me as destroying the image of their perfect child because of what I pointed out and what they did not notice." He replied.

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Chapter 122

I woke up to my bed being jiggled. I turned upwards and Conrad was jumping on my bed. 

"Your dad said to wake you."He said loudly. He took one last jump and then landed next to me.

"Mission accomplished."I replied.

"Your bed is really bouncy."He said.

"Great."I said rubbing my eyes.

"Come on princess. It's breakfast time!"Conrad yelled pulling me out of bed now. He pulled me out and walked to the kitchen as I followed.

"Got her."He said to my dad.

"Wow that's a new record. Less than five minutes. Usually takes me about fifteen."Dad said.

"So you did put him up to this."I asked.

"He offered."My dad answered. I stared daggers at the both of them. My dad cooked pancakes, toast, sausage, eggs, and bacon. Barely any healthy food.

We sat at the kitchen table. I brought fruit for myself to have to the table. I took some eggs, toast, and half a pancake.

"Man. Breakfast here is so much better than at my house. Look at this you have all this food and morning cartoons. We are watching Rocket Power and eating breakfast. What a great life."He said. My dad laughed.

"Mai and I always have to hear Tito's "as the ancient hawaiins said" knowledge. Raymundo's burger shop seems awesome too. We gotta make one for us Mai."My dad said with a wink. Conrad stared in awe.

"You actually know the names of the characters?"Conrad said.

"This is one of the best cartoons Mai has ever watched."My dad replied.

"Number one dad award should go to you."Conrad said. My dad laughed again.

"I don't know. He let his daughters boyfriend sleep in the same house as she did last night. Most dads don't do that."I said winking at my dad.

"Most dads just aren't cool like me."My dad said giving the shaka hand.

"Seriously though, your awesome. You throw my dad to shame."Conrad said. My dad smiled but looked at me quizzically. I shrugged my shoulders. I'll explain to him later. We finished eating and then I got ready for school in my bathroom. Conrad got ready in my dads bathroom and borrowed my dads shirt. We left to go to school after.