_LoveSuicidexo

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Joined: October 16, 2011
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Hey guys(: 

My name's Rebecca.
Born 27th, August, 1995
Currently taken
3/5/12

I live in a town filled with trees and winding roads and quiet people.
I belong among delicious city lights where I can dance through
the labyrinth of crosswalks and listen to music, watch stars,
and linger inside the soft touch of my boyfriends arms. 

In my life, I have been in many battles,
though I do not wish to share the insignificant details.

Some random little things I don't mind sharing:
I absolutely love reading and writing.
I love music; but not just any music.
I love music that can convey a message and a meaning.
Some lyrics or even a guitar chord that can be so catchy and inspiring. 
I notice things that other people usually forget. 
I've been writing music and novels ever since I knew how to hold a pencil.
If you saw me lingering alone in the streets, you'd probably question
what could be going through my mind.

Don't be afraid to ask me.
I'm no longer afraid to show it.

Follow me and I'll follow back(:

 

Quotes by _LoveSuicidexo

I'm afraid of something happening to you,

because I'd be the last one to know, 

but the first one to care.

Me: *finishes dinner fast*

Dad: Wow you were hungry

Me: No, I was sad, so my my tummy told my mind to eat to fill the emptiness I'm trying to void. I guilt ate. And now that I'm done I'm going to go guilt throw it up.
Dad: Did you have anything to eat after school?
Lunch Lady in the morning: Why aren't you buying breakfast? 
Lunch lady during study: Why aren't you eating?
Lunch lady during lunch: Good girl for buying food! 
Teachers watching me during lunch: Are you going to eat more?
Mum: Have you eaten anything today?
Friends: EAT! 
Boyfriend: Did you eat?

Lol guys uh, thanks for caring all of the sudden, (except for Dan and friends they've always cared) but you really don't need to be that concerned. I can, have been, and will take care of myself. I promise.
The moment when you can't even

find the words to say

what's on your mind

or how you feel properly

and you just sit there in the dark

soaking up the silence like a sponge 

because it's so much easier

and relieving

than trying to string together

the insignificant thoughts

that crowd your mind.

I know I’m not fat

I know I’m not ugly 

But as soon as I see a girl 

who is skinnier than me, 

has nicer breasts, 

has whiter teeth, 

has nicer hair

or nicer skin…

I get so  jealous 

that I go home and I try to fix myself

but I never feel good enough.

And it scares the crap out of me.

I might have smiled and laughed and said I was okay, 
but the pain still hurts and still haunts and still lingers. 
I can't just be okay permanently. 
At least not until I'm with him.
Get out
(leave!)
Right now 
It's the end of you and me.
It's too late
(now!)
And I can't wait for you to be gone.
'Cause I know
About her
(ooh!)
And I wonder 
(why?!)
How I bought all the lies.
You said that you would treat me right, 
But you was just a waste of time.
(waste of time!) 


♥ if you remember this
homemade ab/upper thigh workout that's actually kinda fun:

1. sit in a computer chair backwards.
2. put your legs up against the back of the chair, cross your ankles and hold onto the chair with your thighs.
3. bend your back all the way, until your head is touching the floor (or as close as you can get your head to the floor in case you're short).
4. try to lift yourself up in a seated position.
5. Do this repeatedly until you feel like stopping.
My friend is my only hope and chance I have of surviving work.
 
*text from that friend* : I'm not coming to work today. 
 
D: D: D: D: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate when people try to help me...

because I’m an anxious and nervous wreck who can never think positively. 

And whenever people talk to me I just agree because I don’t want to disagree and start an argument.

But someone always ends up getting sick of me during the conversation and saying:

“Okay fine, I was just trying to help.”

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