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the tears falling down my face aren't really
helping me heal my broken heart. the only
thing that can heal it is you.. but im not good
enough for you. she is.. have a nice life.
i can't hate you because im in love with you.
i can't hate you because you're the greatest
guy i have ever met. i can't hate you because
its hard to hate you. i can't hate you because
you make me smile even if you break my heart.
i just can't hate you. its basically impossible.
i would give all that i have and all that i don't
to just be in your arms. to just know that you
love me. to just see your eyes and your smile.
to be that girl who you say 'i love you' &
'forever babe' to. i would give everything & anything.
you're the reason why i fell in love. you're
the reason why i can't sleep at night. you're
the reason why i can't get you off my mind.
most importantly, you're the reason why
my heart is split in two when i speak to you.
i wish you could see the tears falling down
my face right now as i write this.. maybe they
would change something. maybe they would
make you see how much i need you in my
life. maybe they would make you see how
much i love you. but you can't see the tears,
so you can't see how much i love you.
but.. i do. and it won't change. i could go on
and on and on writing about you but it won't
change a thing.. it won't change the fact that
you love her and not me. it won't change
the fact that im never going to be with you.
i don't even know why im writing this. maybe
to vent my feelings even though the pain
will always be there. i have noticed that
the more i have talked to you in these last
6 months the less i had the ability to love
anyone else. i just want to be with you forever.
but obviously that can't happen..not now.
not ever. not even if i keep writing the longest
description i have ever had for you.
she's the luckiest girl on this planet because
she has you. she has everything i want and more.
she has the love from you that im almost
dying without. i need you in my life. please.