alwaysalexis37

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 well heey; my names alexis.. but do you care? probably not. im 14yearsyoung trying to figure myslef out in this crazy place. im happily taken.. probably not for long as usaul but i am.. his names BrendenShanahan. hes a mommy's boy, he plays hockey, hes shy&nervous, but most important he makes me smile ;* ihave twwo absolutely amazinn' best friends.. elizabeth&ellie. lovinllife&ilovetosmile.follow favorite comment. you'll love them(: i play soccer &i actually really love it. i cry alot.. but hey it happens..  i fall fast&hard for stupid boys &i get heart broken lots. im loud abnoxious forgetful impatient &sometimes moody.. but if you get to know me im not that bad.. well ill let you be the judge of that one.. ♥

^see that up there; yeah that was my about me from like 2 months ago. i was happy, i felt like i had everything figured out &i had brenden. but now.. well im confused and im not sure what to do. i feel very lost. but i cant get myself to change that about me. i love re-reading it. it makes me smile(: i miss him, but isnt that how breakups work? yeah i thnk so. so ill deal with teh hurt for now. if you actually want to get to know me hit me up; but i mean actaully get to know me; my past the present and want i want in the future. im a great listener ill sit on the phone for six hours while you cry if thats what you need; thats a promise. if you went to my school i would always be smiling&talking. i never stop. becasue ill be honest im not depressed i dont have a terrible life not everything goes wrong.. i have terrible parents; we never get along &we have a bad past. but why use that as an excuse to be upset, i'll show them that i can be strong no matter what. im just confused, lost &crazy in love. but that doesnt keep me from smiling. it may hurt on the inside but ill never let anyone know that, i cry often but know one see's and that how ii want to keep it, i want to be known as strong. i only have two friends i can count on.. and im so thankful for them; i suck at showing it but they mean the world to me.. they truly have no idea..
status; snoooowday -__- i wanted to see him today &no studying for exams.. woo.

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olivia; i only met you once but the one time i met you you said "you have to stick out in the crowd, because by the time you reach senior year people are only going to remember you if you were an individual &didnt care what others thought of you" you told me that becasue i was trying on dresses and didnt like any of them on me, you said that you wanted to get a dress for the christmas dance that wasnt going to be like anyone elses, but people were going to remember you because of that. sure you told me this while i was shopping in maurices; but still ive remebered that and still care a little bit less of what people think of me just because i perfect stranger took the time to tell me, so i may not have known you very well but rest in peace. you'll definetly be remembered ♥


a senior in my school commited suicide; and this is how ill remeber her because she was so different adn was always smiling from what ive heard; she was a really great girl. and peoples mean words killed her, because people dont think before they speak they just say it; whether or not its going to ruin someones day.. they dont care and it breaks my heart to think of how alone and hurt she must of felt if she did that, no one deserves that. ever. i know how it feels ive been there ive had a terrible day, whether it be with family or just inconsiderate people at school, sometimes both; ive felt like i had no one to turn to and i didnt understand why people had to be so mean.. did they not se me crying, ould they not tell that they had hurt me enough. and ive realized that peple are always going to be mean there never going ot learn no matter how many suicides so pleasepleasepleaseplease dont become a statistic, i know your reading this thinking "yeah you want to help but you dont undrstand" someone somewere out there understands, and you can find them, i promise you i will try to understand, i understand alot, ive been through alot. so please if suicide ever crosses your mind, or even if your having a bad day or someone decided to try to ruin your day with some rude remark, come to me, il listen, and so will ilovetosmile & laughyourheartout those are a couple of my friends that i know are willing to listen, but so am i. no matter what. suicide is never the way to go. becasue you deserve tto live you are here for a reason you just have to find it ♥


 
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please read;

this is a vent; im kindof falling apart. do you ever feel like you dont have the right to llisten to a happy love song. like you dont have anyone that loves you so why would you listen to it? or like no one understands whats going through your mind even though everyone has probably felt the same way at one point or another.. you feel so alone. lately its so hard for me to have fun because the absolute only thing i want to do is call him mine and be with him. hes always on my mid so nothing else gives me any enjoyment. i miss him.
im looking for a witty bestfriend i guess.. everyone says there so glad they met there witty bestfriend so i kinda want one to. i wanna get to know someone. have them tell me all there problems. and be able to listen.. help them. then have them do the same for me. after school if i have a bad day tell them aout it or tell them a funny story..

if your looking for a friend or someone to talk to. im right here!
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I guess today is just one of those days.. Im going to sit at home &realize what i've lost, who i miss, and most of all how ive changed. I miss Elizabeth&my step dad, Jesse&Ingrid. I dont know what I want in life, I honestly couldnt tell ya. But I know what I dont want. I dont want this, the girl ive become.

Pretty pointless i know. But just letting everyine know how i feel.

 
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see my lifes kinda like a scary movie
when you whatch it alone you wanna turn it off when it gets to be to much or scary
just so you can get some sleep that night
but you cant turn it off you have to keep whatching no matter how scary or suspensful it gets
but when you whatch it with another person
thats willing to hold you&cuddle you
when things get scary or a little to much to handle
&you have no problem sleeping that night
because you know you have that person to hold you
♥
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format by; idance.

he  fi nal ly  asked  me  ou  t  last n i ght
It was so amazing &cute.
but im so afriad of him
dumping me, becuase thats the only thing im used to.

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yeah ive made mistakes
should I start to remind you of yours..
yeah didnt think so.

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replace your chap stick with a glue

stick
&&shut the hell up. ♥
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everybody says
I could get any guy i want.
but what they dont know is i dont want just any guy;

i  wa n t   t he  g uy  w h o  c a n   m a ke   me   s m i le
n o  m a t t e r  w h a t
the one thats always on my mind
i want that guy you can have all the others
 

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if he cheated with you,
 he'll cheat on you.

♥

 

 

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