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                 awkward moment when your ex boyfriend likes your facebook status that said like for a

letter and rate

A kiss to your cheek because your lips have been poisoned with the words goodbye

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B*tch your personality just killed your really pretty face

that awkward moment when you see your ex in the hallway

When is my Prince Charming
coming to sweep me off my
feet?
(any day now would be nice)

That's right baby you can look but you can't touch
you lost that right

A break up is never easy. It comes with heart break and disparity. Me I just went through what can be called the worst break up in the century. My names Angela I like Ang for short. My ex is James. I loved that boy more then anything. I will always and forever remember the day we first started dating. He tried to ask me out over the phone haha. I had told him that I want you to ask me out in person. So the very next day we had gone for a walk around the corner to the little park with the trail. It was a nice July summer evening and we were walking around the trail and talking well I was doing most of the talking. He stopped me in mid sentence and said will you please go out with me. Not the most romantic way to ask but I just hugged him and said of course I thought you’d never ask with a big goofy smile on my face. The first month was great! I was so in love spending time with each other everyday after work calling each other at my lunch break; my coworkers making fun of me. I was every bit pleased with how my relationship was going. The second month was when it was getting really rocky. His touch didn’t feel the same nor did the way he kissed me. It was very little that he did kiss me. We argued so much about what would happen to us when school started. That same month I met the family that I heard so much about. I loved them and from what I was told they loved me. They were very sweet and welcoming. James on the other hand left me that day with his family awkwardly so he and his friend can smoke a cigarette. I know that it’s at the time I was so hopelessly in love with him I didn’t care. After time though I noticed a change in him I knew that at some point he was going to break up with me. I started talking to my guy friends about him and the way he acted and they had all warned me that it was all signs to a break up. I didn’t want to hear it of course to I let him decide when and where he was going to break it off. He decided to do it through a text message. Saying I don’t want to be committed to you and friends. So I’m picking my friends over you. I busted into tears and ran to my aunt for comfort. She knew this was coming because I went to her to vent out all my problems I had with James. She sat there and held me called my best friend Bryan and had told him Ang needs you. My aunt had known that Bryan and I loved each other in a way we hadn’t known just yet. But Bryan started heading over from Smithtown all the way to Farmingdale just to comfort me. Once he got over there I hugged him for the longest time standing there resting my head in his chest until he picked me up in his arms and sat on the couch with me never letting me go. I loved him for that. Something was lost and gained that day. Every thought in my head was of James and Bryan knew that. He rocked me and whispered you deserve so much more Ang, you are amazing and he was scum. I cried and whined that not even scum wanted to be with me. He held me tighter and firmly said Ang don’t you dare say that! That boy doesn’t deserve you why he dumped you is for his own selfish reasons. I know you gave up so much for him. All I could do was cry into his chest. I listened to his heartbeat for the longest time until I heard a whisper I really wish I could kill this boy. I looked up at his face my eyes still full of tears. Bryan? His eyes were full of anger. He looked down at me trying to look soft and caring but still angry I say his hand that rested in my lap turn into fists. Me still crying held him and said shhhh just hold me until I fall asleep. We laid there for hours not saying words just hearing the sounds of my whimpers and sobs. I felt his grip on me get tighter and his rocking get faster and steadier. Until I fell asleep is when he stayed until. I was grateful for him. When I w fell asleep it was around two thirty and he had to get up at five. I called him that next afternoon with nothing but thank you’s and more tears streaming down my face. He said I’m coming over again later. Deep inside I was saying please but my mind had said no it okay you don’t have to. I insist he pleaded. Somewhere in me I had a giggle and I sniffled see you soon then. Definitely and then he hung up the phone. I soon out of no where just broke down. Thinking to myself how can a boy have such an influence on me that I had thought I needed him every waking moment. I soon heard the mustang pull up in the front yard. Bryan I thought but had not managed to gather myself together in time to answer the door. So my young sister answered the door and just has said oh she is in the kitchen I listened as his footsteps crept closer I hid my face in my knees as I sat up against the wall. He plopped himself next to me pulled me towards him took my chin firmly and made me look him in the eyes. Look I know your upset but you’re not sitting in this house anymore. Its part of the reason your crying because you’re sitting around this house trying to be alone get your self ready and presentable to go out. I sulked and went up the stairs to change out of my yoga pants and tee-shirt to leggings and a long magenta shirt with a little bit of water proof eye liner that was much needed. He drove us to the docks which was my favorite spot on long island. I loved to sit there and feel the wind in my hair and just feel free of pain for a little while. We stayed for hours until the sun was setting. I never thought I would smile like that for months. He was the only person to get me to do that. He even noticed my smile and complimented it. I rolled my eyes and said you know how many times guys have complimented this smile and he says no but right now mines the only one that matters. I turned my head slightly and rolled my eyes. Ang? Yeah I said. What made you like this place so much he said watching the sunset. Well my mom use to bring us here every time there was a problem in the house so I guess it just became a place where I can be soothed. I said. Then it’s good your aunt told me about it. We stared out into the sunset for awhile. A tear managed to slip my eye down my cheek. Why are you crying he asked? Well sunsets use to be mine and James’s thing. He looked at me and I looked into his handsome blue eyes as he moved close to my lips and said now when you think of sunsets you will think of this moment. The moment when I kissed Bryan.  

Is it normal to miss something that once was so amazing? I do. I need to talk with somebody not one person i know have a clue how i feel and i need to just poor out my heart to somebody. I need to know that my life will turn out okay and I will be better off without him and will find someone better. Help me?