amariee_xx

the few days I get to ^spend with you 
are worth the few months I spend without you.

I have waited 6 an a half months to see his face again , 
now he leaves again in a few days , 
as I lay here in his hotel room at 6am with tears in my eyes , 
I wonder if he's realized just how much I need him.
 

at any giving moment , you have the right to say
" this is not how the story is going to end .* "
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do the things you use to talk about doing but never did ,
know when to let go and when to hold on tight , 
dont be intimidated to say it like it is ,
stop apologizing all the time ,
learn to say no so your yes has a meaning ;
spend time with friends who ^{lift you up} and cut loose the ones who _{bring you down} ,
stop giving your power away ,
be more concerned with being interested then being interesting ,
be old enough to appreciate your freedom and young enough to enjoy it ,
finally always know who you are ,
because there is something called self worth
and you'll never make it in this world without it.

the only person who hasn't lied to you yet in life ;
is someone who you've never spoken too.
 

I'm done.
Yes, I know I've said that once before,
but I t r u l y mean it this time.
I hate you, more than I've ever h a t e d any other guy before .
You know why?
because I trusted you ,
you could do no wrong in my eyes ,
you were perfect .
& I felt so lucky
but everything was just a big lie ,
So that's it. I'm s i c k of d r e a m i n g about you,
your a stupid arrogant a s s h o l e
I'm n e v e r going to be yours.
You've made that loud and clear.
So I'm done. I'm o v e r you,
I'm over w h a t e v e r stupid delusion I was in for those few months.
& guess what ,
I'm not just o v e r you,
I'm D O N E with you.
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& People Say When He Breaks Up With You;;
that is isn't the end of the world,
& No its not really.
But at the time, it feels like it is,
because
you just lost someone who you really cared about.
You feel like you cannot breathe
and its hard to even swallow.
You just sit somewhere, staring straight ahead at nothing,
tears streaming down your cold hardened face.
You can't eat, you can't sleep and thats not being dramatic.
It's like you just became
really close with someone and all of the sudden
BAM!
they don't like you anymore. you've lost them.
and yeah, their are worse things in the world than it.
but heartbreak is something that really hurts.
And No One Can Say They Are Fine With It 

here's to the girls
who used to be his number one.
the ones who waited all night for his text messages;
only to check your cell phone the next day and be disappointed.
the ones who made it through that final goodbye;
dried your own tears;
only to have him message you weeks later as if nothing happened.
here's to the ones who took him back hoping he was different this time,
but have everything be deja-vu of last time
. the ones who couldn't bear to tell their friends what was going on for the
fear of an 'i told you so.'
here's to the girls who loved him so much,
that each mistake he made you tried to forget about it
the ones who got heartbroken all over again.
here's to those great girls
who finally decided that they were completely done with him
and everything he did or said.
you finally remembered that breakups are like broken glass;
better to leave broken than hurt yourself trying to put it together.
you can finally get over him and move on with life.
it's gonna hurt like hell,
and you're gonna have to eventually do it.
but the point is;
you will heal. 

& you miss him right ?
because he was so amazing to you ,
just like he was with every other girl he meets ,
because he was the first guy you would wait up all night for ,
even though he would only give you five minutes of his time ,
because he took hours to reply to a text and only gave 2 word responses ,
because he barley gave you a minute of his time when you would give up hours ,
because he's taken all of you when you've never gotten even a piece of him ?
yeah me too ...