andimstillrunning

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In the land of all things pretty, lives a girl. She is not beautiful, or smart or spectacular in any way, shape or form. In fact, she is very plain, even her name, which she believes suits her well, is plain; Kursten. She is much the opposite of most girls her age, sure, she loves makeup and fashion and fun just like anyone else. However, her glaring weakness is evident. She is shy, painfully shy. If you walk up to her and introduce yourself, she is fine. However she will never approach you first. She sometimes has trouble relating to alot of people. She is a writer, her heart and soul have always belonged to the written word, she began reading nancy drew books at the age of seven and finished reading her first novel when she was only 10. Her dream has always been to produce beautiful works of art that would be bound in hardback and read by millions of hearts across the globe. She can only dream of the day when someone would approach her and say "you are a brilliant author", to which she would reply, in the calmest voice she could muster "you are a brilliant reader". She is also a singer, but unfortunately due to her shyness, the shower head will be the only one to ever hear her, therefore she will never know if she is any good at all. 

This girl is mustering through the tenth grade and is working hard to keep her spot on honour roll, but it is not easy. She blew out 15 birthday candles on October 19th of this year and is waiting patiently for the next time she has the privilege. She has a lot of friends, but the ones she holds nearest and dearest are named Vanessa, Stephany, Allyson, Natsha and Jamie. She loves them dearly and without them she would surely be lost. She is very quick to fall for people but quick to fall out of those feelings as well. Once a boy paused cod to text her and her heart soared, but the next day she waited for hours for him to text her first and when he didn't, she assumed he must not feel the same.

I'm sure you all know at this point, I am the girl from the story. And before I thank you for taking the time to read the words written on my heart, there is one final thing I must say. For if I had left this paragraph out, I would never feel as though I had told my story all the way through. To be honest with you all, I am not entirely sure why upon making my witty account, that I would name my profile andimstillrunning. Today however, I am sure of why I did. Giving up has never been an option for me. Life gets hard, honestly at times I felt as if I could never go on and that my life was completely over. However life goes on. Day after day, mistake after mistake, you have to push through. You have to keep trudging through the smoke and the fire until finally you make it out, beaten, bruised but alive. At times in my short, yet fulfilling life, I have felt as though I had hit rock bottom many times. It hurt, but I made it through andimstillrunning. You can do it too.

Quotes by andimstillrunning



When you feel your world is
crashing all around your feet.
Come, running headlong into my arms,

breathless...


Missing youlikethis is suchsweet sorrow,
won't you come back to me? 
I'll be here today and here tomorrow,

in dark blue tennessee
 



& this is the story of a girl,



who cried a river and drown 



the whole world.




 
 



& i'm waiting in fear of the day you realize you can have

someone way better than me


 
 



& once he had what he had wanted,

he left her to fight the battle alone


 

 

him; i will take you..
me; i'd like to see you try.

him; i meant out to dinner..where ever you want to go.



no matter how hard i try to ignore it,
i know just as well as you do.
the heart i try to call my own,
has always belonged to you.

 






one text after months



of not speaking is all it took to realize...




im not quite over you


 





people are people and sometimes,



we change our minds



but it's killing me to see you go



after all this time


 

i just spent two hours getting ready
in hopes that he might notice me today
and the very worst part of it is...
that i already know he won't