anilevex3lisav

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Joined: May 13, 2011
Last Seen: 3 years
Birthday: October 20
user id: 173824
Gender: F

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Quiz time! 

Time started: 7:06 pm
Gender: female
Birthday: october 20th
Siblings: one brother
Eye color: brown
Shoe size: 9.5 almost 10 womens
Height: 5'2 and a half
What are you wearing: sweats and long sleeved shirt
Where do you live: US
Righty or lefty: righty
Who are your closest friends: luisa and zeynepa
Best place for a date?: anywhere really
Fave Color?: blueee
Fave Number: 23
Fave Boys Name: dont have one
Fave Girls Name: Leyla
Fave Sport: soccer and track & field
Fave Month: july
Fave movies:  too many
Juice: peach orchard punch
Breakfast food: chocolate chip pancakes
Favorite cartoon character: powerpuff girls and spongebob
Given anyone a bath: no
Smoked: have.
Made yourself throw-up: never
Gone skinny dipping: nope
Eaten a dog: uh no?
Put your tongue on a frozen pole?: probably
Loved someone so much it made you cry?: yeah
Broken a bone?: yup
Played truth or dare: yeah
Been in a physical fight: yes
Been in a police car: no
Been on a plane: yeah
Come close to dying: eh, not really
Been in a hot tub: no
Cried when someone died: yes
Fell off your chair: hahaha, alllll the time
Wait for someone's phone call all night: yup
Saved AIM/Yahoo conversations: facebook/skype
Saved e-mails: yup
Fallen for one of your best guy friends: yes.
Made out with JUST a friend?: welllll, technically ;)
Used someone: dont think so
Whats your good luck charm?: dont have any
Best song you ever heard: waaay too many
What's your bedroom like:  a mess
Last thing you said: okay bye
What is beside you?: phone
Last thing you ate: pasta salad
What kind of shampoo do you use:  Garnier
Best thing that has happened to you this year: loved someone and was loved back
Worst thing that has happened to you this year: lost the one i loved and hurt my family
Chicken pox: nope
Sore Throat: yeah
Stitches: no
Broken nose: nope
Do you believe in love at first sight?: YES.
Like school: at one point
Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000 dollars: no
If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you: someone who would know how to get us out.
Who was the last person that called you: my mom
What makes you laugh the most?: my friends and stupid people
What makes you smile?: kris :)
Last person you yelled at: my brother
Last person that told you they love you: kris
Is your loudest friend: too many
Do you like filling these out?: when i have nothing else to do
Do you wear contacts or glasses: glasses
Do you like yourself: kinda
Do you get along with your family: not really
Stolen anything over $50: nope
What are you listening to right now?: What Makes You Beautiful- One Direction. <3
Got any awards: yes
What car do you wish to have: really dont care
Where do you want to get married: bulgaria
If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be: my face, my stomach, my legs, and i think thats about it
Good driver: don't have a licence
Good singer: noooo
Have a lava lamp: no!
How many remote controls are in your house: like 6
Double jointed: yes
What do you dream about: a lot of stuff
Last time you showered: yesterday
Last time you took a bath: while ago
Scary or happy movies: matters on the mood
Chocolate or white chocolate: matters on the mood
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper: dr. pepper
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
Summer or winter: spring
Silver or Gold: both
Diamond or pearl: diamond
Sunset or Sunrise: both
Sprite or 7up: whats the difference?
Cats or dogs: cats
Phone or in person: in person
Indoor or outdoor: both
End Time: 7:22 pm

The Basics:
Name: Evelina.
Age: 13.

Love Life:
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: had.
Do you like someone?: yes alot.
Does anyone like you?: yes he does.
Hugged anyone in the past week?: yeah.

Friendships
Who is your best friend?: luisa.
Where did you meet them?: neighbor.
Did you lose any friends this year?: mhm.
Gain any?: Yeah.
Meet a special friend?: yes.
Did you hang out with any friends in the past week?: Yes.

New Years Eve
Did you do anything at midnight? Yeah.
Who did you spend it with?: My Family.
Did you have any resolutions?: yeah.

Valentines Day
Did you have a Valentine?: Kristopher Allen Wentzell. <3 for the first time.
Did you send out any cards/chocolates/etc?: friends.
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend on this day?: yes i did.

Summer
Did you go on vacation?:no.
Did you hang out on the beach with friends?: no.
How long was your summer break?: like 3 months.
Did you get a tan?: Eh.
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend during the summer?: Nope.

Halloween
Did you go trick or treating?: nope.
If so, who did you go with?: no one.
Did you dress up?: nope.
Was it fun?: didnt goo.

Your Birthday
Who did you spend it with?: Friends & Family.
What did you do?: dinner.
What did you get?: money and phone.
Have You Ever: (Yes or No)
Hugged someone: Yes.
Electricuted yourself: yes.
Climbed more than 60 feet: No
Made a Youtube video: Yes
Lied to a loved one: yes.
Had a pet: Yes
Ran a marathon: No
 

5 Do’s
1. Do you play any instruments?: No.
2. Do you play any sports?: track and field!
3. Do you believe in 2012? Noo!
4. Do you like animals? Yeah.
5. Do you honestly like Obama?: Yeahh sure.
4 If’s
1. If you get $1 Million for breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend, would you?: well if i was already planning on it, yes. if not, then no.
2. If you were to get $50,000 for killing a rat, would you?: yes.
3. If you were to choose between your best friend and your brother/sister, who would you choose?: prolly bestfriend cuz me and my brother arent close.
4. If you were to choose between coke/pepsi or sprite/7up, which would you choose?: pepsi and 7up.

3 How’s
1. How old do you want to be when you get married?: 20 or 21.
2. How many siblings do you have?: 1.
3. How did your last Christmas go? good.

2 When’s
1. When is your birthday?: October 20th.
2. When was the last time you went to the mall?: while ago.

1 What
1. What would you say if the guy/girl you like right now kissed you?: i wouldnt say anything. i'd kiss him back like ive never kissed him before.

Thirty-two secrets. Be honest no matter what.

One - Where was your default pic taken? baby shower.
Two - Are you being honest? yeah.
Three - Have you ever lost a close friend? Yeah.
Four - What is your current mood? mixed.
Five- Whats your brothers name? that does not matter.
 Six - Where do you wish you were right now? shoppppping.
Seven - Have a crazy side? helllll yes.
Eight - Ever had a near death experience? Yes.
Nine - Something you do a lot? tumbleeeee.
Ten - Angry at anyone? Kind of.
Eleven - What's the last thing you said to your mom? i do not remember.
Twelve - When was the last time you cried? last night.
Thirteen - Is there anyone you would do anything for? Yeah..
Fourteen - What do you think about when you are falling asleep? him.
Fifteen-Do you still have pictures of an ex boyfriend/girlfriend? yes.
Sixteen- What was the last thing in your mouth? gum.
Seventeen- Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? kris.
Eighteen- What is your favorite song? You Make Me Feel.
Nineteen- What are you doing right now? this.
Twenty - Where did you get the top you are wearing? white aero long sleeved.
Twenty-one- Do you enjoy drama? Nah.
Twenty two- Describe your life in three words? pretty f^ucked up.
Twenty three- Who are you thinking of right now? kristopher. <3
Twenty four- What should you be doing right now? Nothing.
Twenty five- What are you listening to? food cooking.
Twenty-six- Does it annoy you when PEOPlEzz TAlk likE THiS? Yeah.
Twenty seven- Who was the last person who yelled at you? mom.
Twenty eight - Why were you last sad? we broke up.
Twenty nine- Do you use smiley faces on the computer? Yeaah.
Thirty-Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yeah.
Thirty one- Are you happy with life right now? not quite.
Thirty two- Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now? Yeah.

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Him...♥
What color is his hair? dark brown.
What style is it? shortish, like a soccer players.
What color eyes? amazing green/silver.
Cute smile? Yes.
Braces? nope.
Glasses? Nope.
Height? 6foot1.
What grade is he in? junior.
How did you meet him? my cousin.
How long have you known him? since last summer.
Does he play any sports? soccer and basketball.
Do you guys ever text? allll the time.
How about AIM: no one does that..
Facebook chat? mhm.
Last time you talked? yesterday.
Have you "liked" his profile picture? mhm.
Has he liked on any of your photos? alll of them ;)
Has he ever written on your wall? alll the time.
Describe something he would wear on a typical day: jean or shorts, aero shirt or soccer shirt, and either his basketball hoodie or soccer jacket. <3
What's your favorite thing you've seen him wear? jeans, soccer t-shirt with his last name on it, underarmour long sleeved shirt, and basketball hoodie. :)
Least favorite thing? nothing, he looks good in everything.
Do your friends know that you like him? Of course.
Do any of your teachers know that you like him? hahahaha, Mr. Burke.
Do your parents know they exist? yeah, my mom.. 
Do you think they would like him if you were dating him? well my mom doesnt which is why we broke up..
Have you met his parents? nope.
What would you do if he saw your witty? i wouldnt care..
for some reason, everything I do reminds me of him. I can't seem to get him out of my head. when I do something stupid, first thing that comes in my head is "I gotta tell him what I just did." to top it all off, I had a dream about him tonight. the dream was amazing. we were at a friends party, but to me and him it seemed like no one else was around, no one else mattered. he was holding me in his big strong arms, and I felt so safe, like nothing could ever hurt me. he kissed me at random moments, and those kisses were the ones that sent butterflies throughout your whole body. then towards the end of the dream, he pushed me up against a wall, kissed me hard, and told me he will always love me and that hes sorry for all the pain he's caused me. and then he left. this break up is going to be SO hard to get over. but I'm not going to let myself go back and try and get back together. the break up is for the best, it has to be done and it has to happen. I'll have to get over it sooner or later. but right now, it hurts so bad. </3
And today, I did one of the hardest things I've EVER had to do. I broke up with him. But honestly, I think its for the best. I was risking too much, and it didn't even feel like we were dating. So yeah. I guess we'll just have to go our own ways, and if fate brings us back to each other, then I guess it was meant to be, if not, we'll both find someone else who we can be happy with. So I guess that's it. But I definetly wouldn't say that I regreted the four months we spent together. It was all worth it, but I just couldn't do it anymore. It didn't feel like it did in the beginning anymore. We were fighting a lot. I just hope that we will be able to stay friends.
March 1 is Self-Injury Awareness Day. an orange ribbon represents encouraging raising awareness for people who self-harm. favorite this if you are, know or understand people who feel the need to harm themselves. self-harm seems to become a bigger problem and in order to stop it, people need to be aware of the reasons behind it. let’s stop the ignorance.

You’re sitting in your room ~ door locked ~ with a pen in your hand and a blank piece of paper in front of you. Your hand is shaking, and the tears begin again - for the third time in the past hour. ‘To my family’ you write at the top of the page, but decide it’s a bad way to begin your letter ~ your suicide letter. You try again, start over ~ again and again, but you don’t know where to begin. No one understands you; no one knows what you’re going through, you’re alone or at least that’s what you think. Nobody would care if you’re alive or not, you mean nothing to nobody. It’s night, and you slip into bed. ’Goodbye’ you whisper into the darkness. And with that, you take your last breathe and end it all. No body cares, right? Well you thought wrong. It’s a Tuesday the following morning, and when it’s 7:21, your mother comes and knocks on your door. She doesn't know you can’t hear her she doesn't know you’re gone. She knocks a few more times, calling your name to open up. When there is no reply from your side of the door, she opens it and screams. She collapses on the ground while your dad rushes to your room. Your siblings have already left for school. Your very weak mother collects all the energy she’s got which is close to nothing to walk over to your bed. She leans over your dead body, crying, squeezing your hand, screaming. Your dad is trying to stay strong, but the tears escape his eyes; calling 000 or 911 with his left hand while his other one is on your mother’s back. Your mother blames herself. All those times she had said ‘no’ to you, all those times she had screamed at you, and sent you to your room over something stupid. Your father will blame himself for not being there for you when you asked for help, for being away from home at work for long. Nobody cares, right? 8:34. There’s a knock on your classroom door it’s the school principle. She looks more worried than ever. She calls the teacher to the side; all the students worried: what’s going on? The principle then later announces about your suicide. The popular girl that always called you fat and ugly is now blaming herself. The kid that would always copy your homework but treat you like crap ~ he’s blaming himself. The boy that sits behind you ~ the one that always threw things at you during class ~ he’s blaming himself too. The teacher is blaming herself - for all those times she’d scream at you for forgetting your homework, or not listening in class. People are crying, screaming, shocked, in regret of what they did. They’ll all be devastated - even the kids you’ve never talked to before. Still nobody cares about you, right? Your siblings get home. Your mother has to tell them that you’re gone; forever. Your little sister ~ no matter how many times she’s screamed at you, told you she hated you and stole your stuff ~ always loved you, and saw you as her hero; her role model. She now starts to blame herself; why didn’t I do what she told me to do when she told me to? Why did I take her stuff even when she asked me not to? This is all my fault. Your brother gets home ~ the boy that never cries. He’s now in his room; mad at himself ~ he caused your death. All those times he’d played pranks on you. He’s punching holes in his wall, turning over things; he doesn’t know how to deal with the fact that you’re gone. Forever. Nobody cares about you, right? Right? It has been over a month. The door to your room has been closed all this time. Everything is different now. Your brother has to be sent to anger management classes, your little sister cries everyday still waiting for you to come back. Everyday she waits for you to come back home. The popular girls have now turned anorexic. They don’t know how to deal with the pain that they’re feeling. Your father has depression; your mother hasn’t slept for nights it’s all her fault. She’s been crying and screaming every night wishing for you to come back. The boy who would always bother you dropped out of school. The boy that copied your homework now cuts. But nobody cares about you, aren’t I right? Your mother finally decides to go clean out your room. But she can’t do it. She’s locked herself in your room for two days to try to clean up your clothes, your things. But she can’t she can’t say goodbye to you, not yet, not now. Never. It’s your funeral. It’s a big one ~ everybody comes. No one knows what to say. The beautiful girl with the big smile is gone; you’re somewhere else. No one knows what to say, they’re all still shocked. Everyone cries, everyone misses you. They all wish you’d come back but you don’t, and you won’t. Still think nobody cares about you? Think again. Even if people don’t show it, they care about you, they love you. If you kill yourself today or any other day you won’t know just how much you meant to people. If you kill yourself today, it stops your pain, but it pains all the ones who know you for the rest of their life. Suicide is the easy way out - but it’s the wrong choice. Life is beautiful. Yes, it does have its ups and downs everyone has their bad days. Sometimes people go through tough times in their lives like you’re probably going through now but bad times come and go. You might not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it’s there. No matter how hard life gets, never give up on yourself, or on your life. Take a minute now, and think. If you killed yourself ~ how would the people that love you feel/go through? Can’t think of anything? Well I’ll tell you: tears, tears, and more tears. Devastation. Guilt. Pain. Broken. Regret. Miserable. If after reading this you still feel suicidal, there are people that can help you. I’m here for you whenever you need me, and I’ll be more than happy to listen to you and try to help you feel better. There are teachers, parents, grandparents, neighbors, adults, councilors ~ they’re all there for you whenever you need them.

 

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