I just
don’t get it, why have I been attracted to you
all this time? You have no idea how to carry on a conversation,
and your lack of emotion is appalling. Yes, you have those
dreamy eyes and
the most amazing laugh, but
you’re obnoxious. I should probably hate you for that, to
be honest. That and the fact that you constantly ignore me. Back
when I first started falling for you, you were sweet and caring
and spoke what you were thinking. I missthat you. The one that came up behind me and
whispered our stupid inside jokes in my ear. The one
that would walk with me to my classes. The one that
didn’t flirt with girls in front of me. The one that
would never
make me cry... the one that wanted to be
with me. But you’re nothing like that anymore, I just
don’t understand why I still get butterflies when you
sign on, and the fact that I can’t
hold back a smile when you look at
me. I have nowhere else to
go? Maybe. Or maybe it’s because I’m waiting for
you to change back to what you used to be; the boy who was
capable of
making a decent, faithful
relationship,
with me.
I guess
that’s
it.
Talk to me every [ once in a
while, ] ask me how I’ve
been doing, what I’ve been up to. Let me open up to
you, give me a positive response. Make me laugh, uncontrollably. Smile at me, even if
it’s [ for a second.
] Walk with me to
class, like you used to. Sign on more the once every 2
weeks. IM me first. Put down the
game controller, talk to me, have a [ real conversation
] with me, remember?
Ask me my new favorite song. Miss me, at least a
little. Sit next to me. Let me wear that sweatshirt.
Stand up for me. Stop [ ignoring me.
]
Show me I’m not invisible to you.