*I'm changing the main male characters name from James to
Our date with the guys was a lot of fun, I laughed a lot. Dan did
keep asking about Derek though, and it kinda hurt talking about him, but I was okay. I mean,
I have to be okay. Kelsey, Kate, Jenna, and I all live on the
same street, so we're always at each others houses,
constantly. Especially in the summer. Everyone on our street is
really close, and everyone pretty much leaves their doors
unlocked, 24/7. The girls and I flock through each others houses
through out the day and are always with each other. It's the
day after our date with the guys, and we all actually slept at
our own houses last night. I woke up this morning though, and I
started crying. Which is where I'm at right now; crying in my
bed. I called Jenna about 5 minutes ago, and now her, Kate, and
Kelsey are all walking into my room.
"What's the matter?"
"Are you okay?"
"It's Derek you guys. I loved him, I really did. He used
me and I know it. But the other night at the party when he held
my hand and was with me and watching me the whole night..I don't know, it made me feel like he
still liked me. And I told myself that I wasn't gonna make an effort to talk to him, if he wanted, he
could talk to me on his own. But he hasn't.
Nothing. No texts, calls, nothing. It kills me and I don't
know what to do. I'm over him, I don't want to get back
with him, but it still sorta hurts,
being used, you know? And I just I don't even know what to
do. You guys think Dan likes me and I mean I don't know. I
don't wanna get involved with another guy and
end up getting hurt, you know? What do I do you guys!"
"Aw baby! I think you needa be done
with boys for now. Dan definitely likes you, but if you don't
wanna get involved with a guy right now,
just stay friends with him, okay? You're gonna be okay. Where's Matt been lately? He
always can put a smile on your face. He gets back from Florida
today, right? You should call him. Spend the night with him,
"Yeah, you're right. I love you guys, thanks so
much," I said, hugging them all.
"No problem babes."
"McDonalds run for lunch?"
"Hell yes!" We were all in sweats and tank tops, but we
walked to McDonalds and got lunch, playing with our toys from our
Happy Meals and having fun. As we were devouring our fries, my
older brother Ryan walked in with his best friend, Kyle.
They're a year older than us, but they're not friends
with the FSU guys.
"CARSON!!", Kyle screamed, running over to me and
giving me a hug. I laughed and hugged him back, saying hi. Ryan
says Kyle is in love with me, but it's really just
a joke. Kyle and Ryan have been best friends since they were
like four, and when I was five I had a huge crush on Kyle. and he
just likes to remind me of that, even though it's been 11
"Whaddup baby?", he asked, sitting
next to me. I rolled my eyes and we all got up, leaving my
brother and Kyle to our mess.
"What'd I say babe!? No! Don't leave me! Give me
another chance, come on!" He does that all the time, but I
just ignored him and we all walked home. It was kinda cold for the end of June, so after I took a
shower, I threw on a pair of skinny jeans and a gray hoodie, I think it was Kyle's actually. It fit
me perfectly though, it musta shrunk or
something, Idunno. I dried my hair and did my
makeup, then called my best guy friend, Matt.
"Matt Matt Matt," I said when he picked up the
"Carson Carson Carson."
"Come over I have soooo much to
"Yeah we can go to dinner later or something , I have to
talk to you pleaseeee Matt." Just
then I heard a knock on the front door and when I answered it, it
was Matt. He lives right next door to me. I hung up my phone and
gave him a huge hug, pulling him inside my house and sitting him
down on my couch. It was four o'clock and if we wanted to go
to dinner by six, I'd have to talk a mile a minute to fill
him in on everything..