ashleymarie

Everyday I notice a change, I think of you less &; less.
I'm done with moving on, IM OVER IT.

I built these walls the prevent whats happening now...
Once again im falling, but this it differnt ; you're falling just as hard.

A real man with say "i love you"
but a coward with say "goodbye"

I DONT CARE WHAT IT TAKES,
  someday i'll find my way into your heart.
   even if it takes this lifetime, your worth it in my eyes.
    after all we've been through theres got to be a chance.
     your the closest thing i've know to love &+; i wanna know more.
      so i'm gunna say it again &+; again. . .
I DONT CARE WHAT IT TAKES,

last night i layed in bed listening to him cry on the other end of the line.
i had broke him, never in my wildest dreams would I of thought he'd cry over me. But I cant be with him, i've been uphappy for to long.
Now what is there to do.?
   I want to love him, i just dont know how.

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the wost thing in the world is being with someone new but still crying over the one that broke your heart.

Girl: We need to talk.
Boy:About what baby.?
Girl:well, remeber when i told you i didnt like being in relationships.?
Boy:yes, baby what are trying to say.?
Girl: let me finish; i still feel that way but for some reason here i am. . . in a relationship & yea that does mean something but its not what i want. i'd be so much happier with us being 'together' but not bf & gf. i know it sounds weird but its me.
Boy:No, no matter what you say im going to be here. &+ thats all im going to say.
Girl: But i still dont want to be in a relationship. its just not something im ready for.
Boy: im always going to be here.
Girl: well idk . . . what if this isnt going to last & thats why im feeling this... what if this is a sign.
Boy: BABY, im ALWAYS going to be here.

[ real convo with me & the boyfriendd. ]
rate high if you think i should stay with himm. =
aim if you wanna know more bout the situationn.

i want eveything to be okay between us, but there not &+; truthfully i dont think they ever will. i cant go on for much longer &+; im losing this battle.
. . .from the beginning i new this isnt what i wanted. but for some reason i went along with it. No, i never lied about my feelings but i just dont see 'us' working out anymore. i dont want to hurt you, but i know you love me. <3

i dont want a relationship.
i decided going to date like a guy; its not hard.
  all i have to do is play the game well & play it hard. 
  break a few hearts in the proccess; whats the issue.?
if i guy can do it so can i. ! <3