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This is so hard,
I want to call him so badly. I dialed his number but hung up before the phone even started ringing. I keep thinking about him. I’m trying to remind myself of why I’m not calling: “he’s with someone else, he hooked up with another girl, if he wanted to talk to you, he’d call you, he doesn’t love you anymore.” It’s hard. It’s hard for me to understand the fact that his feelings have changed and he’s moved on. I guess it’s hard because I’m having a hard time moving on and I don’t understand how you can be “head over heals” for someone and than within a month, not even want to talk to them. I suppose that’s the thing though, he never really did fall that hard. He never really felt the same. That’s why he’s have such an easy time moving on and leaving me behind. I need to be strong, just like he is. I haven't waited around six years to be used. I don’t deserve to be treated like this. No one does. I’m going to try to stay strong, I’ll try not to cry, I won’t pick up my phone and dial his number. I’m going to attempt to forget my feelings. I’m moving on.
 

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My Resolutions for 2012

1. Exercise every day for 30 minutes, 5 times a week.
2. Try to go the whole year without eating fast food and candy.
3. Try to go the whole year without drinking anything but water and milk.
4. Persuade parents to let me become a vegeterian.
5. Remain an honor student but focus on sports too.
6. Study for 2 hours everyday after school before anything else.
7. Save $1000 for college funds.
8. Stop gossiping about people, even if they're your enemies.
9. Be more friendly to people and learn to smoothly talk to people
without getting nervous, espescially people you don't know well.
10. Stop going on Witty every 5 minutes and do homework!

*oh and try to get a boyfriend. ;) if you don't it's okay*

 

 
       One day, you're going to       
want that girl.That girl that knew she wasn't perfect,
but tried to be perfect for you.  The girl that     
believed that the scraps of you she was given were
     worth it, because something was better than nothing.
That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there     
   for you, and loving you was the only way she could.   
The girl who sees your flaws, but values them     
      as much as your strengths. The girl who still can't       
bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes 
you probably deserve it. That girl who saw past
 your pretty eyes and treasured parts of you no one
else has ever appreciated. The girl who may    
 realize she may never have your heart but will carry
 the image of you in hers forever. The girl who sees
    this and still loves you. The girl that should have you
     But doesn't even though she deserves it.