I hate crying over you... Its like one second I
hate your guts, think what a wh*re you are, laugh
at your new girlfriend, and tell myself how much time I wasted on
you. But in the back of my mind Im ready to kill
myself for letting you leave, I miss your kisses ,your hugs, I miss
you. They all say I seem happier without you but I don't
know what to believe. Should I love you or should I hate you? You
think horribly of me so I know who wouldn't take me back. But
this silence is killing me. I told myself I wouldn't think of
you. The part of me that still loves you wants to die for
letting you leave. Ive felt this way for 3 days now and
Im not eating, sleeping, nothing. Ive
been cutting so much more now. I don't know what to do.
If you read that and actually care, I love you so much. I really
needed to get that out...