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A New Beginning

chapter 1
another world

"Where the hell am i?" i say to my self
I'm sitting up on a bed in a room i some-what remember.
I get up in the same pjs i went to sleep in, and walk out the door into a hallway that looks familiar but i just can't seem to remember it.
It's just a straight hallway with six rooms-
2 on either side with a stair case in between both and 1 on each end, the on i walked out of was on the right side.
i look down the stair case on the right, it goes into a giant room with lots of pictures on the walls
of beautiful landscapes and plants and theres a table FULL of food
and right then i realize that I'm starving,
but I'll eat later, it seems to be a deadend.
I look down the other stair case on the left, but i can't see anything but a wall.
the stupid staircase turns, but i do see a light,
so i proceed down the staircase cautiously, to peek around the corner.

"Oh.My.GOD."


                                                    
should a keep going??

is it just my computer or is the time never right on witty?

i just got my phone.
and its my dads old number
and he had it on t-mobile,
but transford it to
boost mobile.
but t-mobile keeps calling me
and today i desided to answer the
call myself,
and the dude that i was talking to
wasnt speaking english.
WTF???

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be a

murderer
 

.3 words.

.red.
.sparkly.


.bowtie.

i have his number
all i want ot do is text him
"i like you."
but im a scaird little girl
that is uglyer than his girlfriend
two words-

no chance.

i will not make
the same mistakes that you did
i will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery

how can you see into my eyes, like open doors
leading you down into my core,where ive become so numb
without a soul my spirts sleeping somewhere cold