babycuz

Yes, I would die if someone got ahold of my journal.
But not because it's a diary full of secrets,
because it's a journal full of things I'm too afraid to say to you,
and if someone got ahold of it
I'd be terrified of you finding out everything I've been hiding from you.

Incase all you seriously creepily obsessed girls forgot, here's a reminder:
This is NOT a One Direction fan site.

Today, I finally decided after spending a whole week to just think about it, that by the end of the summer I won't be breathing.
I just want to say goodbye to Andy, Edgar, Kendra, Emily, and Keagan. And a special goodbye to Chrissy and Adam. Chrissy, you have been here for me through so much and I will never find a way to thank you. You've only known me for a year yet you have been the best friend to me that I have ever known and remember I will always love you and I will never forget you. Last but not least Adam. Adam I think I will always love you. Ever since the day I met you 5 years ago I knew I would always have feelings for you. We've been through a lot together and you will always have my heart and be my bestfriend. Please read my letter to you, it will explain it all. Chrissy knows what notebook it's in. Love you all and thank you for everything while I've been here, it's just time.


 

So here's the story:
In the past year I've been in love twice and in the same year been broken hearted twice.  I'm finally back to being best friends with both of the guys, here's the problem, I'm faIlling for both of them all over again at the same time and so are they, or so it seems, now I'm all confused. Help. I don't know who to choose.
 

I'm still in love with who you used to be.

My biggest regret is dating him...
because if I never did,
we'd still be the best of friends.

She said she hopes I kill myself...
well my mommy always told me:
 "Be careful what you hope for."

My best friend just told me he liked me.
WTF do I do now?

Girls always seem to have their own "imperfections";
like
"my nose is too big"
or
"my ears are too small"
or
"I'm too fat"
or
"I'm too skinny"
well my question is...
who said those things were "imperfections"?
Who decided on whose nose is normal?
or whose ears?
or whose body?
What makes the "perfect" person?
Well, really, in a way, I think,
we all are.
     We just got an idea of"perfection".
From who?
My philosophy?
Barbie.
When we were little we were all told that barbie is perfect.
So I guess that's where we starter basing our "imperfections".
But really?
There is no "perfect", because there is one problem with barbie.
She's plastic.