babygurl17

today i saw him. i saw a scratch on his arm. i asked him what it was. he said it was nothing. i later found out that he was attempting to cut himself. he told me he did it that morning. while he was on the phone with me. i dont know why he did it though. is he not happy with me? am i not good enough? so many questions run through my mind. he promised he wouldnt do it again... i hope this time he doesnt break his promise...

he cant start doing it again. he just cant. i dont think i could deal with the pain again. te pain of knowing your best friend self harms... and you cant do anything about it. the pain of knowing you try and try and try to stop them but they just wont. and they finally do... but they still have those thoughts and could break at any moment.

dear anyone that hates themselves and has suicidal thoughs (or self harms),
think about this, your life might be bad, but after high school, you get to move out (if your familys the problem) and you dont have to deal with those bullies (if your being bullied) it might seem like a long way away. but dont hurt yourself, and especially dont comitt suicide. its not worth it to die and not ever know if it would have gotten better. what if you ended up succesful? or with a really great person that you love? you could end up with that one person in your life that you have alway had a crush on. oh, and dont forget about your family. you think no one will care. but they will care. you could make someone want to die if you comitted suicide. so every one reading this, thinking their life couldnt get better, it can. you just have to stick it out until it does, and be stong.
sincerly,
that girl that used to hate herself and was bullied, but then thia guy came along, now hes my amazing boyfriend of almost six months.

hotgirl66 (at my house): mom "when do you want me to pick you up?"
me: tomorrow... night.
both of us: *lmao*

i know im not the prettiest, and i dont have "swag". but i have a boyfriend who loves me for who i am, and im smart, with a good education that will take me far in life. unlike your "swag".

so my friends getting bullied at his new school. i just want to walk up to the guy bullying him and say "is it really worth it to bully people? Is it really worth it to ruin their lives, to make them feel worthless? How would you feel if people made fun of you? Just imagine, being bullied, every single day to the point where you hate yourself, and cut yourself. Where you want to take your own life. Just think of what hell people go through. Really think about it. I can tell you, it's not fun to hate yourself. I know. just think about it. Think about what you say before you say it. Cuz really, it's not worth it, to make someone hate themselves."

when you want to talk to him every second of every day but then you feel and/or seem clingy :/

i hate people. enough said.

*in spanish class*
Ms. Leip: *tells Tariq to sit down*
Tariq: yes sir
ms. leip: sir?
Tarip: i meant Sinora
ms. leip: i guess my boyfriends in for a surprise
whole class: *laughs*
ms. leip: i didnt mean it like that!

*in spanish class*
marcus: Ms. Leip! tariq say he pushed an old lady down the stairs!
tariq: no i didnt!
Ms. Leip: *looks at him for a while*
Ms. Leip: well im an old lady, so can at me bro
whole class: *speechless*