bakemeacake

I'm all that because I'll wear  shorts & a tanktop, I'm anorexic because I eat as much as I want & don't gain weight, I'm too good for you because I don't let you push me around, I'm a liar because I won't tell you everything, I'm stupid because sometimes I'm wrong, I'm ugly because my face isn't perfect, I'm too easy because I like boys, I'm annoying because I'm not chill enough, I'm a loser because I'm not friends with your group, I use people because I do what's best for me, I'm fake because most of the time I'm happy, I'm weird because I'm not like you, I'm controlling because I get mad sometimes, I'm clingy because I like to be around people, I'm greedy because I like to be satisfied, I'm naive because I'm younger than you, I'm conceited because I'm proud of who I am, I'm rude because my manners aren't perfect, I'm unappreciative because I don't praise you. Don't try to tell me who I am
because I already know.

i don't
want to be the girl who spends the day missing him,
waiting while the pain goes away.
i will not be the girl who cries herself out while she falls asleep
waiting to forget everything about him
am afraid to think that in a few years am going to realize
that i still love you.
i do not want to watch how the days,
the weeks and the months are passing by
realizing that the feeling is still intact.
it hurts me up inside just to think that i will not be able to forget you,
to stop loving you, to move on and get over you.
because am trying so hard to move on,
to be happy again and smile without faking
and
be that girl i used to be.