beccar0ni

I'm in college. & This is what happened last Friday night... 

My friends and I decided to go to a Frat party. Now, people always warn you about those frat boys. They're only after one thing. But you know how it goes..when you meet a cute boy, you hope he'll be different.

So, a boy who lived near my dorm passed right by me and I stopped him and said hello. I should have stopped there. But there was something about his blue eyes and black hair that made me keep going.

We were just standing there, while everyone else danced and I asked if he danced. He said he was bad at it, but put his arms around my waist. It wasn't dirty, it was nice and simple.

Then, my friends came up to me and said they were leaving. Leaving me there. Alone. With him. Because they thought we were hitting it off. 

So we kept dancing and I noticed that he had a pin on his shirt because he was pledging for the Frat. He said, "You know, if you touch the pin you have to kiss me. If you spin it, you have to
f *ck me"

I definitely wasn't about to kiss him. I haven't even had my first kiss yet...

He then started to kiss my cheek in hopes that he could reach my mouth. But I kept looking away.

I didn't know what to do. My friends had gone back to our dorm. I was alone and I started to get thirsty but I was afraid to ask for a drink because I didn't want alcohol. 

But I asked for water. And he said he was thirsty, too. So we went inside a room and grabbed water from a fountain drink stand. I watched him drink some, too. Just to be sure that it was safe.

Then it got late and I wanted to get back. I told him and he said he would walk me.

As we left, the other guys chanted his name...they assumed we were going to his room.

This boy tried to get me to his room that night. As we walked back he told me about how he had a guitar and could sing but it was back in his room and I would have to let him show me. His intentions were otherwise though...

But you see, I haven't even had my first kiss yet and I actually want it to mean something when it does happen.

I could have hooked up with an incredibly attractive guy that night but instead I walked back to my dorm alone. 


I know I did the right thing. 
 

nmf

I always like the boys who I know won't like me back

and


the boys who like me, I don't like back.

Lovely.
:( 
 

You almost feel ashamed 

that someone could be that important that without them, 

you feel like nothing.
 

nmf