behind_the_smile

and out of all these things ive done i think i love you better now 

i have a confession.....  i love you. in your world i dont exist but in mine you're everything.

i may smile on the outside but on the inside i'm
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okay, so i'm only good enough for you out of school?
I'm confused. i thought you liked me?
or was that a lie too?
you know what?
I'M DONE WITH YOU!

Girl: am I pretty? Boy : NO Girl : Do you want to be with me forever? Boy : NO. Girl : Would you cry if I walked away? Boy : NO. She heard enough, and was hurt. She walked away, tears ran down her face. The boy grabbed her arm. Boy : Your not pretty, your Beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would DIE. (Boy whispers) : Please? Stay with me. (Girl whispers) : I will. Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they love you. Something good will happen to you tomorrow, it could be anywhere. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life! If you don't repost this in the next 15 minutes, you will have bad luck for the next 5 years

and it's time to say goodbye.
kiss her on the cheek and wish her luck
for she is about to enter a world unknown
all alone she walks replaying the life she regrets
it is time to say goodbye to the one she loves
he doesn't love her back, he won't miss her
Goodbye she whispers outside his door
ill see you in heaven, if i make it.

mine. i think.

i slowly drag the blade across my wrist,
loving the feeling of being in control.
Oh, How i wish this feeling would last.
but it comes and goes quickly,
just like the smile on my face.
people dont understand the rush.
they never will.

Do you see that girl with the beautiful smile? Yeah, its fake.
Her mom left last night.
Her sister wont talk to her.
Her parents are probably going to get a divorce. Yeah, see that shirt that she keeps pullig down the sleeves of?
Shes trying to hide the cuts. She believes she deserves them.
See that beautiful girl? Well, shes not happy. She would rather be dead.
See that girl? Thats Me!