Status: I use this as a form of therapy
Joined: February 17, 2010
Last Seen: 1 week
Birthday: May 5
user id: 101596
Just a 24 year old trying to figure her life out

Quotes by Bellatrixy101*

I saw you for the first time without rose colored glasses
What you said made me realize that literally every one of my guy friends, haven't respected me like you do. Don't know what that says about teh people I choose to hang around, or myself. Thank you for respecting our friendship, and me. You are such a great person and I am so glad we met. Maybe in the future something could possibly happen between us, but I'm just so happy we get to learn more about each other just as friends
While I'm disappointed, this is for the best. And I agree, our friendship means more than possibly ruining it down the road, or causing riffs in our friend group
Something unexpected happened last night. I'd be lying if I said that I never fantasized about it happening, I just didn't think it would actually come to fruistion. But it did happen, and it felt like I was in an early 2000's romcom. Or that elevator scene between Jess and Nick in "New Girl". Same thing right? 

I feel good about this. While I do have some worries, he doesn't seem like the type of guy to lead someone on. I want to take things slow, I know how I am when things start to go too fast. Moving forward with this situation, I want to make sure I don't compromise my boundries and stay true to myself. I also want to be comfortable enought with each other to communicate what we want and not feel weird asking for something we need from the other. I do hope this leads to some sort of commitment down the road, because I really want that stability. I want to be seen with him, go on dates, get to know each other, make plans or trips, and whatever else we decide.
Face your mistakes head on. Learn from them, and then let them go.
It is okay to be still
I've been so focused on welcoming in love and new connections, that I neglected the connection to myself. Moving forward I will make it a priority to take care of myself, and learn to love who I am again. This is the only way I can heal from the past, and stop self sabotaging.
Manifestation is a powerful thing
I'm at a point in my life where I know I deserve better, but I still find myself compromising my emotional needs for someone who takes so much of my being.

This cycle has to end.
Officially been on this site for 12 years <3