bentleysmommy

Status: <<< This kid in this picture is my life!! <333
Joined: February 26, 2013
Last Seen: 1 decade
Birthday: April 18
user id: 351483
Gender: F
Heey guys!! Im baaack!! Ive missed you all soo much. For those of you that may not know me, well.. My name is Kendraa. I have a beautiful son named Bentley Axyvior. He is my whole world!! Ive spent 4 months in Rehab. I just got my son back right before Christmas. Im almost 18 years old. I also have another little boy. He was a twin to Bentley. His name was Aydenn Nikolos, he was still born. I never got to hear my little one cry. But hes better off up there in heaven. Anything else you need to know, just ask! Stay Beautiful guys! <3 <3

My kids..

Aydenn- I have two sons. The oldest is Aydenn Nikolos, he was born a minute before Bentley. Sadly he was only is this world not even for a full minute. He died before i even got to meet him, he was not fullly developed all the way. When they were inside of me, Bentley took up most of the room. He was fully developed, which left no room for Aydenn to grow. I do get sad, because he was my son. He was my world. When they brought me his little body, and layed him in my arms, i couldnt help but scream and cry. I never got to see my son cry, open his eyes, move his little limbs. He weighed 3 lbs 2 oz. He is missed dearly. I love him with everything i have. I make atleast 3 trips a week to the cemetary to see my son. I sit there and i cry and i talk and i just vent. I know he hears me. I know hes in no pain up there with our great lord.. <3 <3 <3

Bentley- Bentley was my youngest, he entered this world at 5 lbs 7 oz. He was born a minute after Aydenn. He is healthy. He turned one on 3/24/13. Hes gotten soo big. Hes starting to walk, he can say a few words as of right now. He doesnt talk much, only to the people hes most familiar with. He is my life. It is hard sometimes. I get stressed with school, and work, and everything else. But at night, when i come home to my son and i go to his room and see him sound asleep in his crib, it reminds me that this is all worth it. He needs me and i need him. He is what keeps me going on. <3 <3 <3

I am pregnant again with another child. I just recently found out. It is not with the same man i had my other boys with. Its with my ex boyfriend. And before you start hating on me and calling me a hoe and stuff like that. I didnt plan on this. I didnt plan on Eric breaking up with me after we found out im pregnant. But he did. Thats life I suppose. I raised one kid on my own, and i can raise another. So dont hate on me. Im a perfectly good mother. And ill be darn if my kids dont get raised right. So please, keep the hate to yourself. I really dont need it at the moment...

Quotes by bentleysmommy

For a girl I've chose- Maikayla Annalise-Faith

For a boy I've chose- Jase Andrew-Taylor

Excited to meet my little one.(:
Not sure how im gonna manage to be a single mother with 2 children..

All because he doesnt want to be a father..

But i will try my best..

Just for my kids..

 
Yeah, your a real man.

You dump me after we find out im pregnant. And then you try and say that i cheated and that the kid aint yours. 

Im not a hoe. I didnt cheat on you. I know how it feels to be cheated on, i would never put someone through that kinda stuff..

So, just remember. This was your descion. You cant be a man and take the responsibility of being a dad. Then fine.

I can raise this child on my own. I did it with one. I can do it with another.

And we will be going to court to prove that this is your kid. And you will either be a father and see your child, or you will pay me child support..

Your choice budd..
Well, i feel i should share this with all of you...

I am expecting another child..


Now, before you start hating on me.

It deffinanlty was NOT planned..

I didnt plan to get pregnant and have another baby at this time..

But, it happened. And i refuse to call it a mistake..



Because it is not a mistake.. no child is ever a mistake..

its simply a gift from god..
<3






 
When i get upset or depressed, i go somewhere i can scream and yell without disturbing anyone..


I get in my car, i drive all the way out to the dark, star lit sky field and i scream..


i throw my hands in the air and i just let it all out..

i curse, i yell, i cry, i scream...


And i just let it all out...


<3
Laying around in your pajamas all day,

taking a shower and putting on more pajamas...


(:
My favorite part of the day is when he comes home at night from work, all dirty and covered in oil and dirt,

I know hes home when I hear his car pull in behind mine in the drive way..

I enjoy when he comes home, takes a shower, and then lays on the couch with me while the boys sleep.

He makes me feel so special. He makes me feel safe, protected, wanted and loved.

I couldnt imagine falling asleep in anyone elses arms but his..

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
We all have dreams. Weather its to become a super star, or something else..
We all have one...

As for me, my dream is to raise my son, go to college and become a dental hygentist. No, its not one of those crazy dreams. Its just simple. My dream consits of showing everyone who ever doubted me that i can do it, to make my mom proud. To show her that my son hasnt ruined my life. And that just because i have a kid doesnt mean i wont amount to anything..


Thats my dream..
Happy Birthday to my wonderful bestfriend, boyfriend, my everything!!

Eric, you mean everything to me! Youve helped me through soo much! You treat my son like your own. I love your little boy as much as i love mine! Your such a great father! I dont know where id be without you in my life! All those sweet texts you send me when your not home. I love them. I love when i can fall asleep in your arms at night. I love when we sit down and watch our children together. Your plain amazing.. And ill be with you until you tell me to leave.. Which i hope is never, ill always be here for you darling!! And remember, turning 19 isnt that bad!! Dont feel like your getting old. Ill love you until were skin and bones. Then i love you even after were dead and gone. I love you Eric Ray. <3 <3
Until youve counted little fingers.
Counted little toes.
Held a little hand.
Kissed a little nose.
Soothed a little tummy.
Read to little ears.
Powdered a little booty.
Wiped away little tears.

You havent known loved...

<3 <3 <3