bentleysmommy
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<<< This kid in this picture is my life!! <333
Joined: February 26, 2013
Last Seen: 1 decade
Birthday: April 18
user id: 351483
Gender: F
Joined: February 26, 2013
Last Seen: 1 decade
Birthday: April 18
user id: 351483
Gender: F
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Heey guys!! Im baaack!! Ive missed you all soo much. For those of you that may not know me, well.. My name is Kendraa. I have a beautiful son named Bentley Axyvior. He is my whole world!! Ive spent 4 months in Rehab. I just got my son back right before Christmas. Im almost 18 years old. I also have another little boy. He was a twin to Bentley. His name was Aydenn Nikolos, he was still born. I never got to hear my little one cry. But hes better off up there in heaven. Anything else you need to know, just ask! Stay Beautiful guys! <3 <3
My kids..
Aydenn- I have two sons. The oldest is Aydenn Nikolos, he was born a minute before Bentley. Sadly he was only is this world not even for a full minute. He died before i even got to meet him, he was not fullly developed all the way. When they were inside of me, Bentley took up most of the room. He was fully developed, which left no room for Aydenn to grow. I do get sad, because he was my son. He was my world. When they brought me his little body, and layed him in my arms, i couldnt help but scream and cry. I never got to see my son cry, open his eyes, move his little limbs. He weighed 3 lbs 2 oz. He is missed dearly. I love him with everything i have. I make atleast 3 trips a week to the cemetary to see my son. I sit there and i cry and i talk and i just vent. I know he hears me. I know hes in no pain up there with our great lord.. <3 <3 <3
Bentley- Bentley was my youngest, he entered this world at 5 lbs 7 oz. He was born a minute after Aydenn. He is healthy. He turned one on 3/24/13. Hes gotten soo big. Hes starting to walk, he can say a few words as of right now. He doesnt talk much, only to the people hes most familiar with. He is my life. It is hard sometimes. I get stressed with school, and work, and everything else. But at night, when i come home to my son and i go to his room and see him sound asleep in his crib, it reminds me that this is all worth it. He needs me and i need him. He is what keeps me going on. <3 <3 <3
I am pregnant again with another child. I just recently found out. It is not with the same man i had my other boys with. Its with my ex boyfriend. And before you start hating on me and calling me a hoe and stuff like that. I didnt plan on this. I didnt plan on Eric breaking up with me after we found out im pregnant. But he did. Thats life I suppose. I raised one kid on my own, and i can raise another. So dont hate on me. Im a perfectly good mother. And ill be darn if my kids dont get raised right. So please, keep the hate to yourself. I really dont need it at the moment...
My kids..
Aydenn- I have two sons. The oldest is Aydenn Nikolos, he was born a minute before Bentley. Sadly he was only is this world not even for a full minute. He died before i even got to meet him, he was not fullly developed all the way. When they were inside of me, Bentley took up most of the room. He was fully developed, which left no room for Aydenn to grow. I do get sad, because he was my son. He was my world. When they brought me his little body, and layed him in my arms, i couldnt help but scream and cry. I never got to see my son cry, open his eyes, move his little limbs. He weighed 3 lbs 2 oz. He is missed dearly. I love him with everything i have. I make atleast 3 trips a week to the cemetary to see my son. I sit there and i cry and i talk and i just vent. I know he hears me. I know hes in no pain up there with our great lord.. <3 <3 <3
Bentley- Bentley was my youngest, he entered this world at 5 lbs 7 oz. He was born a minute after Aydenn. He is healthy. He turned one on 3/24/13. Hes gotten soo big. Hes starting to walk, he can say a few words as of right now. He doesnt talk much, only to the people hes most familiar with. He is my life. It is hard sometimes. I get stressed with school, and work, and everything else. But at night, when i come home to my son and i go to his room and see him sound asleep in his crib, it reminds me that this is all worth it. He needs me and i need him. He is what keeps me going on. <3 <3 <3
I am pregnant again with another child. I just recently found out. It is not with the same man i had my other boys with. Its with my ex boyfriend. And before you start hating on me and calling me a hoe and stuff like that. I didnt plan on this. I didnt plan on Eric breaking up with me after we found out im pregnant. But he did. Thats life I suppose. I raised one kid on my own, and i can raise another. So dont hate on me. Im a perfectly good mother. And ill be darn if my kids dont get raised right. So please, keep the hate to yourself. I really dont need it at the moment...
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Blaaaah..
Annoyed...
Irritated...
Just wanna give up on it all..
Very stressed...
:/
Annoyed...
Irritated...
Just wanna give up on it all..
Very stressed...
:/
Anyone wanna talk?
I need to vent. :/
Id greatly apperciate it...
I need to vent. :/
Id greatly apperciate it...
I try not to cry in front of my son. I try to wait until he has
gone to sleep at night, or when hes with his father.
I dont want my little boy to see me cry, in his head he thinks im this strong women that can go through anything and still keep a smile on my face.
I dont know if he will ever be able to understand this..
I dont know what hes gonna think when he gets older and wonders why his father and I arnt together, or why he has to go to a cemetary to visit with his brother..
I just dont know..
</3
I dont want my little boy to see me cry, in his head he thinks im this strong women that can go through anything and still keep a smile on my face.
I dont know if he will ever be able to understand this..
I dont know what hes gonna think when he gets older and wonders why his father and I arnt together, or why he has to go to a cemetary to visit with his brother..
I just dont know..
</3
Go ahead and mention my child,
The one that died you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further.
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
Knowing that he has been missed.
You ask me how I am doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing
I feel it will take a lifetime.
Mommy misses you so much Aydenn. Words cant even explain..
</3
The one that died you know.
Don't worry about hurting me further.
The depth of my pain doesn't show.
Don't worry about making me cry
I'm already crying inside.
Help me to heal by releasing
The tears that I try to hide.
I'm hurt when you just keep silent,
Pretending he didn't exist.
I'd rather you mention my child,
Knowing that he has been missed.
You ask me how I am doing.
I say "pretty good" or "fine".
But healing is something ongoing
I feel it will take a lifetime.
Mommy misses you so much Aydenn. Words cant even explain..
</3
i dont understand how you expect me to just get over my firsts
childs death?!
He was my first child! I carried him for nine months!!
I was suppose to come home with TWO little babies that day, instead i came home with ONE!!
Your not a parent, you dont know what its like to lose a child! He was my child. My son. My angel. My everything.
He meant the world to me. Id do anything just to hear him cry, see him open his eyes, hold his little body in my arms one more time.
I was starting to cope with this, until you had to throw it up in my face that i did something wrong and thats why my son isnt here with me anymore..
I tried my best, your not making this any easier for me..
I miss him too. Just as much as you do. But your not his parent. You dont understand how it feels..
I really would do anything. Id give my life for him to be here and be healthy and alive, but thats not how it works...
I messed up. I know. And thats why I dont have my son here..
No need to tell me anymore..
</3
He was my first child! I carried him for nine months!!
I was suppose to come home with TWO little babies that day, instead i came home with ONE!!
Your not a parent, you dont know what its like to lose a child! He was my child. My son. My angel. My everything.
He meant the world to me. Id do anything just to hear him cry, see him open his eyes, hold his little body in my arms one more time.
I was starting to cope with this, until you had to throw it up in my face that i did something wrong and thats why my son isnt here with me anymore..
I tried my best, your not making this any easier for me..
I miss him too. Just as much as you do. But your not his parent. You dont understand how it feels..
I really would do anything. Id give my life for him to be here and be healthy and alive, but thats not how it works...
I messed up. I know. And thats why I dont have my son here..
No need to tell me anymore..
</3
I know im not the greatest mom. I know ive made mistakes in my
past.
But, im doing my best to make up for them. My son is my son. And if you cant understand im doing the best i can,
then you need to leave. Im not gonna put a man before my child. It doesnt work like that.
The ONLY man i need in my life is my son. Hes always gonna be here for me no matter what.
And ill be darn if you think your worth more than my son.
I carried him for nin months. I gave birth to him. And i almost lost him.
I wont let it happen again..
<3
But, im doing my best to make up for them. My son is my son. And if you cant understand im doing the best i can,
then you need to leave. Im not gonna put a man before my child. It doesnt work like that.
The ONLY man i need in my life is my son. Hes always gonna be here for me no matter what.
And ill be darn if you think your worth more than my son.
I carried him for nin months. I gave birth to him. And i almost lost him.
I wont let it happen again..
<3
So, i feel like i have noone to relate too..
If any of yall have children or are expecting a child,
Please, feel free to follow me and leave me a comment!
I need people to relate too!!
(:
If any of yall have children or are expecting a child,
Please, feel free to follow me and leave me a comment!
I need people to relate too!!
(:
My son is my life. Im glad that god gave me him.
Yes, im young. Yes, its hard.
But i would never change my life for a dang thing.
I do regret some of the things i did. But i wouldnt change them..
They made me what i am now..
<3
Yes, im young. Yes, its hard.
But i would never change my life for a dang thing.
I do regret some of the things i did. But i wouldnt change them..
They made me what i am now..
<3
Hey guys!
Im back! Its me Kendraa!
Ive miss you all sooo much.! I just wanna let you all know im doing muuuch better!
I have Bentley back with me and everything is going so well!
Im clean and havent touched a drug since i got out of rehab!
I hope all is well with you guys!!
Lovee you.!!
<3
Im back! Its me Kendraa!
Ive miss you all sooo much.! I just wanna let you all know im doing muuuch better!
I have Bentley back with me and everything is going so well!
Im clean and havent touched a drug since i got out of rehab!
I hope all is well with you guys!!
Lovee you.!!
<3