Hey beautiful,
My name is Devon, I'm 14 years old and i have the typical
teenage drama. Boys, friends, feelings, mood swings and the works. I have four brothers and I'm the only girl.. I play field hockey and track, When ever I'm stressed I go for a run, paint or start freaking out like crazy. I'm in 8th grade now, and if you ask me this year screwed me up big time.
In the begining everything was fine and perfect, untill I started falling for this kid my best friend liked too. I told her and everyone else I stopped haveing feelings for him but I still do..even till this day. Devin, he's my ex..and we used to be everything to each other but as you could guess, it didnt work. It swirled me down into all time low, crying mysef to sleep, dealing with the pain for a long time. TURST ME I'm over him. And no guy will screw me up that badly again.
This year conviced me that it was okay to do self harm. For a period of time I was really bad and was doing it daily even if nothing was really going on. But like all of us we have our family problems and friend issuses. I started when I found out my brothers were doing drugs again. When they was "clean", I looked up to hem. For doing so good. Now there doing really good, I'm so proud of them and pray everynight. A lot of times I would just build myself up so much, get so angry, so sad and just thought it would solve it.
My mom saw my wrist for the second time and she flipped so badly. It was near Christmas, December 22nd. Nick, my brother defended me. I was just curled up on the floor balling out everything I had in me. Now its been two months without cutting <3 and I feel AMAZING! NEVER BEEN PROUDER OF MYSELF!
WITTY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I CAN BE ME HERE! FACEBOOK IS FOR FAKE ME, THIS IS WHERE IM ME! I LOVE JULIA, JARED, AMY, SOPHIA, JOSH AND EXSCIALLY MY MOM. I LOVE ALL OF YOU SOO MUCH. I WOULD DIE FOR ANY OF YOU:)
Bottle
clink together as you angerly
throw them into the trash
I'm in my
room awaking from
doors shutting by your drunken hands
You said no more drinking
and said you quenched your
pain
I'm starting to think
you will never stop and never find your old self
I love you daddy but
from now on I'm
standing in front of the fridge with my
thoughts exploding.