Hi guys, I'm Ali. I'm 14 and I absolutely love scary movies and music. I love heavy metal and stuff like that. I pretty much like any kind of food, except for chocolate. I'm pretty weird and awkward, so people tend to avoid me. I've been battling depression and self-harm for a few years and I'm not a bad listener, so if any of you need someone, you can come to me.
Quotes by bluecat2113
Okay, you
can just skip over this. Hey guys. Sorry I
haven't been on lately. It's just lately I've felt so
distant. Like the things I used to love and spend most of my time
doing, I just don't like doing them anymore. Since I've
been gone, I've been hearing these voices at night. Maybe
it's just me going crazy, but I hope it's something that
will take me away from here. Just know that whatever happens to
from now on, I'll be okay. I'll be
free.
Sorry
for posting this, but I had to get this stuff off my
chest. You can just skip over
it...
I'm just over it. I'm done with all
of Taylor's crap, the lies. You know everything, from the
cutting to the suicidal thoughts , but you don't take it
seriously. You think it's all a joke and I do it because
I'm "forever alone." No, that's not why. You
also think it's okay to make jokes about it to other people
and continue to call me names. I thought I could trust you, but
apparently not. I don't know who I can
trust.
Okay, so
Kim. You have changed so much. You drag me to church every
Wednesday and sometimes Sunday, even though I don't believe
in that stuff. You always hit me and call me "stupid."
Maybe it's just me, but I don't think friends are
supposed to do that. You also dated my ex. That sort of
hurt, but I didn't tell you that. You have been my best
friend since Kindergarten, and when Hayden told you I cut, all
you said was "oh." Yeah, I would've at least
thought you would've done something or said something other
than that. Maybe that's just me.
Alright, now to Hayden. You remember outside when I told
you about what Taylor and I were talking about? Yeah, well that
hurt. A lot actually. I thought you cared. I hoped you
did, if you really want the truth. I don't know what it is,
but I feel like I have to trust you. Maybe I'm going
crazy.
Mom: You act like your life
sucks, but it doesn't. You get everything you want, you
ungrateful child. Me: Actually, life does suck. Every single day I
wakeup and drag through the day wanting to die and feeling lonely.
I get laughed at and picked on a lot, too. I'm struggling with
my grades and get yelled at. I stay up late every night crying
because I wish I could be pretty and skinny like everyone else
around me, sometimes I stay up wishing I could die. I don't
have any energy to do anything anymore, and all I want to do is
sleep. I'm slowly being sucked into this vortex of sadness and
loneliness, but you don't seem to care. So just because you buy
me stuff when I ask for it, doesn't necessarily mean that I
have the best life even and that I'm
happy.
having a
really big spider as a pet that didn't jump or bite or do
anything scary, just like a two-foot long spider that just sits
there and follows you around like a puppy and speaks english
and when it talks, it has a really deep voice andtalks ing a
really agressive voice and rarely speaks, but when it does it
only says helpful things like"yo,
man there's balloons on sale in the next aisle for like 90%
off"in it's
really deep spider voice and it's just like really chill
spider overall. ♥