I'm
sick of living in all of this pain. I'm bullied every second
of the day..literally. Whether I'm being bullied about my
weight, the way I look, the way I dress, the way I act, and
everything else, I just can't deal with it anymore. I've
thought about suicide for a while, and maybe I should just do it.
Maybe if I ended it, I'd make everyone else happy. I'm
not happy..why should I make other people unhappy? I strive to be
perfect. I cut my wrists, and once people found out about it,
they'd joke about it. I'd come home everyday in tears. I
even faked sick to stay home from school some days. I don't
feel safe. I'm bisexual, but none of my family can accept it.
They can't accept the real me. My mom even told me she
refuses to accept the fact that I like girls. I've been
kicked, punched, slapped, beaten up, and tortured by other kids,
especially at school. I got the blame though, because "I
should act normal." I even stopped eating so all the weight
jokes will go away. I'm already uncomfortable enough in my
skin, why make it worse? It doesn't matter anymore. I'd
be better off gone..