caitiecatforever

Mistaeks. They happen to the best of us. Perhaps they happen in a series of events, one after the other. Sometimes our own mistakes are caused by other people - their mistake triggers something in our brain that in turn makes us want to do it too. However, mistakes can sometimes turn out to be better than we first anticipated they would. They can turn into opportunities and lead to events which are more positive than negative. Or, they can turn out as the things that can completely ruin our lives.

When we arrived, fashionably late of course, the party was already in full swing. The door was open so Serena, Rosalie and I figured it was okay to just walk right in. Rose immediately spotted her boyfriend in the flood of people and hugged us both goodbye, while Serena rolled her eyes.

"So… where's Jay?" Serena winked.

"Umm… somewhere here I hope!" I laughed nervously. A part of me didn't really want to see him, in whatever he would be wearing that would be so perfect I could never compare to his beauty. That part of me lucked out when I saw him walking down the stairs with a drink in his hand, greeting anyone and everyone he walked past.

"Don't blush too much Kaela!" Serena giggled and nudged me in the ribs. "But there's the love of your life!"

I glared at her, "Shut uuuuup!"

"Okay, and I promise that I'll leave the moment he walks over here," she giggled again.

I looked up from her to see that I had lost Jay in the crowd. Where could he have gone in such a small amount of time? Suddenly I felt arms around my waist and a hot breath on my cheek.

"Boo," a voice whispered, before releasing me. I turned around to find myself looking straight into the dark brown eyes that did in fact belong to Jay.

"H-hi!" I managed to gasp out.

I could barely hear what Serena had said, but I knew that it meant I was now relatively alone with this beautiful boy.

He raised one eyebrow and took a step back, looking me up and down.

"You look good tonight Kaela, I'm so glad you could make it," he smiled a breath-taking smile. Before I could answer however, he had spotted someone over my shoulder, muttered something about 'see you later' and disappeared just as quickly as he had appeared. This of course left me standing by myself, with possibly a very unattractive look on my face, trying to catch my bearings on what had just happened.

I finally remembered where I was and turned on my heel to take in my surroundings. There were people around who were definitely NOT sober - which meant somewhere around here there were drinks. 

Every person in the world would like to think that they have total control over every situation they are in. Rarely ever are  these type of thoughts said out loud, but they are there, in every human brain. We want to know what's going on, we  want things to go exactly the way we plan it. We want to control what people say, what they think, the way they act,  so that whenever something happens, it happens in our favour. You can be a shy person, barely say a word, but in your  head you know the way you want things to be done. There is a little control freak in all of us, and the sooner we all  realise that we can never control everything, the better off we will be.

It was Friday the next time I saw him. For some reason he had been absent more days than he had been present. I  walked into class to see him sitting on a desk, talking to someone in the chair beside him. As I got closer I realised it was  Serena.

"Hey girl!" she called as she caught sight of me. "Running a bit late this morning were we? I waited for you for ages, but  then I had to come to class."

"Yeah, woke up late," I dropped my bag down next to the desk I usually sit in.

"Got the milk worked out yet?" Jay looked down on me from his perch on the desk. His dark chocolate eyes stared right  through mine, and for a split second I felt as though he was looking straight past them and into my soul. I had to take a  second to compose myself, so as to not make a complete fool of myself, again. I pulled my focus away from his  mesmerising eyes. He had his right eyebrow raised again - it appeared to be a habit of his. It was kind of cute. His short  hair was styled slightly messily, but in a perfect way.

"White liquid that comes from cows, right?" I gave him a subtle wink as the teacher walked through the door and told us  to take our seats. I was in total control of my own mind, and of my little crush on Jay. I was going to make him want me.

All the interesting stuff seemed to happen in the cafeteria. Serena, Rosalie and I were going over our plans for the  weekend when Jay walked straight up to our table and sat down. There was an abrupt silence around out table. No one  knew why he was there, or why he thought himself good enough to join the conversation, when the three of us were  clearly speaking privately.

"Oh hi Jay. Yes, we're good, how are you? Oh, of course you can sit down, go ahead!" Serena said sarcastically.

Jay completely ignored her and looked to me. "Party. Saturday night, you in?"

I didn't break the eye contact for a second. "Where at?"

"My place," he took his wallet out of his pocket and pulled a small piece of paper from it, all the while looking straight  into my eyes. With one eyebrow raised, he took my hand, turned it over and placed the paper inside it.

"Be there," he said, getting up from the table.

"We'll see," I smiled and watched him leave.

I could feel Serena and Rosalie's eyes watching me from either side.

"We are so there," I said to them, knowing that was the question they wanted to ask. Rose let out a little giggle and I  heard them high-five behind me. I stared straight ahead of me, mindlessly picking at the french fries while the girls  discussed what they were going to wear. I couldn't concentrate on their conversation, I was too busy envisioning him  sitting there, looking into my eyes, into my soul. He was so beautiful. Perfect. Jay was so perfect, that I didn't think I  deserved him.

Without warning, his perfect body turned towards me. His perfect eyes looked down on me, his perfect hands holding a lunch tray. He gave his perfect hair a slight flick, and then his perfect lips started moving. Wait, his lips were moving? Was he TALKING to me? That snapped me out of it, and suddenly I was back on the Earth again, feeling the sharp jab of Serena's elbow in my ribs.

"I, ah...wh-what?" I stuttered. Idiot.

There it was again, his perfect lips moving. This time though, my ears registered the sound coming out of them. He was laughing. And his laugh was just as perfect as every other aspect of that strange boy, as was what came next: words.

"I saaaid, could you pass me a milk. Pleeeease," he pointed behind me, although I still didn't quite register what it was he wanted. I was too mesmerised by the way his tongue flicked across his lips as he slightly dragged out the sound of the vowels in every word. I stared some more, but this time in confusion.  He smiled down on me. It wasn't a genuine smile however, it was a smile that made me feel as though he was looking at the big neon sign on my forehead that read "I'm so stupid".

"Milk? You know, the white liquid that comes from cows? Behind you?" he raised one eyebrow and continued smiling. I could hear Serena and Rosalie either side of me, desperately trying to hold in their laughter.

I turned around, to see the small fridge on the bench, containing the milk cartons. Oh. Milk. I grabbed one and turned back around to see that he was now giving Serena a strange look.

"Here you go," I said. "Milk." Double idiot.

He turned his attention back to me and nodded. "Thanks, I'm glad to have helped you learn something new today. I'm Jay by the way."

"I know." Did I seriously just say that? Were those the words that came out of my mouth?

"And you are?" he raised an eyebrow again in amusement at my obvious lack of brain power.

"I'm..ummm.. I am, I mean, my name is-"

"Far out girl! Her name is Kaela, I am Serena, and that is Rosalie," Serena rolled her eyes at me. "Kaela's brain has appears to have left her body at the moment and floated off somewhere into space."

The next thing that happened could possibly have been the most embarrassing moment of my life.

"I can see. Maybe we'll try having another chat when she's… at a more intellectual level. Let me know when she gets past elementary school," and with that he gave a small wink, turned around, paid for his lunch and left.

I was no longer confused. I now knew exactly what was going on. I had a crush on this boy. A real, actual crush. None of this 'he's-rather-attractive-I'll-date-him-for-my-image' stuff. No, Jay was my first REAL crush. And I had just completely stuffed up our first ever conversation.

Confusion. There comes at least one time in your life where the only emotion you feel is complete and utter confusion. Whether it's confusion about certain events, or confusion within yourself, you always come out of the situation more wise and observant than you were before. Either that or you stay confused, become an overly-confused person and never actually come to a conclusion or decision about said confusing situation.

It was lunch period the next day when I was starting to think this was going to be the case with me. No matter what I did, I couldn't get him out of my head. Over and over I played  in my mind that confusing scenario where a boy I had never met, a total stranger, walked through the door of my classroom and gave me a feeling that I had never felt before in my life.

Serena and I were sitting at our usual table, picking at the plate of ketchup-drenched french fries, when Rosalie came skipping over.

"So I heard you've got a thing for the new kid!" she was practically screaming with delight.

I didn't realise she was talking to me until Serena started laughing - the same laugh that snapped me out of the trance yesterday when I'd first seen Jay.

"Say it a little louder Rose, I don't think the whole school quite heard you, " Serena shook her head and immediately Rosalie's enthusiasm dropped, and she sunk down into her seat with one hand over her mouth.

I tried to say something to contradict what Rosalie had said, but Serena cut me off, "Honestly though Kay, he isn't THAT good looking! I don't know what's gotten into you - you aren't the type to go all giddy when a cute boy walks into the room."

I actually had no idea what to tell them. I didn't think I had a 'thing' for him. I'd never even spoken to him! I guess it would have made sense though, what I had been feeling was generally associated with the emotions caused by liking someone… or so that's what people had told me. I've had boyfriends before, but none of them had ever made me feel like this.

"Kaela!" Serena hissed in my ear, "there he is!"
I turned my head in the direction she was looking. Rosalie gave a little squeal, and pulled me up from my chair, whispering something about this being my chance and I vaguely heard both her and Serena giggling and murmuring some sort directions in my ears. I however  had completely zoned out of the conversation the second I had laid eyes on Jay.

He was walking, in all his perfect-ness, up to the line of people waiting to get their food. I some how managed to end up behind him in the line, which probably had more to do with Serena and Rosalie than me consciously walking over there. Because at that moment, I could feel absolutely nothing. It was like my whole body had just gone numb, and my brain had decided to cease all thought processes. Once again, I had no idea what was happening.