caitlin13

Imperfect
 
My hips are too wide

My thighs jiggle too much
My feet are too large
My eyelashes aren’t long enough

My stomach isn’t flat
My arms lack muscle
My cheeks are too chubby
My hair isn’t always in style
Society taught me I’m not good enough
My own worst enemy
Demons itching to escape
A tragedy

I'm such a hypocrotie.
 I hate when girls call themselves fat when clearly they aren't.
But I think I'm fat myself.
I'm just not sure how to fix that.

Watch me as I bleed
Roses are red,
but your core’s charcoal grey.
You inflicted me so much pain,
watching as I fray.
Your voice echoed a song,
as I slowly went insane.
Ripping me apart for so long,
I crumbled at your knees.
I’ll watch you become a wreck,
with such ease.
Go die in a hole,
you poor excuse of a soul . 
 

Sooner or later the growls will subside
and I'll forget I was even hungry..
Perfection seems to come in smaller sizes
these days.

I think I've finally gained enough courage to tell him I can't sit around anymore, waiting for something to finally happen.
Here I go I’m sending him everything that’s racing through my mind. 
 

Whenever I'm watching a wedding show,
I try to picture myself getting married one day.
But I never see it, how could someone love me that much?
How could anyone want to marry a girl like me?
I hate admitting me but I really hope I’ll be proved
Differently. 
 

MyLife'sLikeAGameOf
FamilyFeud

It's all about trying to guess the answers
and sometimes I figure them out.
But sometimes there are the answers,
I can never seem to solve.

You Have No Idea
how bad it hurts sitting here,
telling myself I'm never going to talk to you again.
Because every time I spilled my guts to you,
it never changed anything.
So I'm done.
It's time for me to emerge from the shadows,
and be who I want to be.
This is my life, I'm the one in control
not you.
I'm right aren't I?
You Have No Idea, Do you?
 

 I discovered that even if you expect nothing
You're still disappointed when you don't hear what you
wanted.