You know what I think
we
are most afraid of?
Not knowing.
Not knowing whether it’s all really worth
it.
Not knowing if
you should give up or keep fighting.
Not knowing why
you do things you do.
Not knowing the
purpose.
It’s like when
you’re little
and you touch the stove and get burned,
because you didn’t really know that it was
hot.
Not knowing has always hurt
us,
from the very
beginning.
You know that
moment you feel
when you wake up
and realize you have more time to sleep?
Or, when you accidentally overhear someone
say something nice about you?
Or when you see someone you like
and your heart races?
Or even when you reach a goal you set for yourself?
Now, remember what that feels
like
and next time you’re upset, or sad, or crying
think about that
feeling.
Have you ever
wondered about the things we tell
ourselves
before we fall asleep?
We whisper the words in the dark,
telling ourselves that we’re happy,
or that he’s happy,
that people will change their minds.
We persuade ourselves that we can live
without the people who have left.
Each night before we fall asleep
we lie to ourselves in a desperate hope
that maybe,in the morning,
it will all be
true.