camdenicole

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eehhh im supposed to say stuff here.... soo WORDS WORDS WORDS!!!!! IM WRITING SOOO MANY WORDS THIS IS THE BEST MOST ELL WRITTEN THING YOUVE EVER READ!!!

Quotes by camdenicole

~numb~
what is happening to me? not only my body feels sleep deprived but my mind too. my brain feels slugishly numb, like im aware of my surroundings but im in a dream state. that song keeps playing in my head and while i listen, i think of my relationships with everyone that has come to ruins. my mouth is dry and there is pain piercing my palms but i have trouble locating my voice under all the numb layers. im trapped under a quilt suffocating. i cant seem to let out a scream, not even a breath. my lungs ache, but i dont dare mov., i simply sit there and take it all, allow it to take over me.

3 spring haikus for art class:

the wind wistling by,                 5
the bright hite sun sparkling      7
in the crisp spring air.               5

new life spilling out,                  5
beautiful blooming buds form,   7
dancing in the air.                     5

waking up to find                             5
dew forming on the short grass      7
with the fresh rain smell.                  5
~loss~
there are so many emotions in me that i feel as if i may explode. all of the tears are welled up inside of my chest begging for an escape but i refuse to let them leave because i know the moment i start to cry, i may never be able to stop.at this point i dont know what to do, i couldnt take it if i lost him and i fear i might. the pain is overwhelming and i dont know what to do or how to deal with it but it hurts. the tears are dripping onto my cracked broken heart like acid and ripping holes right through it. i am a mess and im forced searching for a solution to my happiness again. it left me long ago and ive been too busy searching for a substitute to realize that its right infront of me, teasing me,threatening to leave me alone in the darkness again. i dont think i can stand going back there. things happen. you find yourself lost in insanity from being alone and start to imagine stuff. voices. whole conversations. its depressing and i cant bare the thought of it ever returning to me .
~leech~
i dont know what to do, i want to cry so bad. my heart feels like its swelling and might explode from the infection. i feel numb. i dont want to move or speak, i just want to sit here and be swallowed in self pity. i just feel empty. i dont feel like i have a purpose. i have that pain in my throat from trying to keep myself from crying. but why am i hiding this> i dont care who is watching, who sees. i just want to let the tears escape from my eyes. just let them fall. i dont know what i should do and i dont even know what i want. i dont know if i want to just continue to try to forget him or if i want to cling to him, i need him. i feel so selfish because if he does still feel the way he used to, i wpuldnt  want him back for that reason. i would want to have him back because i need him. i miss him. i miss being proud to say he was mine. i miss the way we would both turn shy if people were around. i miss how he would help shove out all of the negative in my life and fill my mind with thoughts of him.

~conflicted~
i dont know what to do. ive never conflicted with my mind like this before. everytime i think of it, it makes me ant to cry... then i remember people are around me and i put on my smile and try to act the same. ive loved him for so long, all i would think about  was him and every time he txted me i would blush and smile at the thought of him. now i try not to think of him and whenever he texts me i feel... strange, like im a bad person. his friend said he is starting to like me and we are getting closer each day he is one of my best friends, but thats the problem. im starting to think of him as a friend and nothing more. i really wish i didnt feel this way but i think i might be falling out of love with him, and i miss him already. i kno im bad for him anyway and i know that if he decides that he really does like me, that i can no longer speak to him... end any pain and conflicting minds. i really need to clear my head... to tell someone but i dont know if i can tell anyone. im afraid and i dont know why.

Read if you love & believe in God.
 

A girl went to a party and she ended up staying longer than she planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town, and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he were waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. when she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been killed in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered. "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her." Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone. Did you know that 97% of teenagers will not stand up for God? Re-post this if you truly believe in God. PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what. "If you deny me in front of your friends, I shall deny you in front of my Father." STAND UP FOR HIM. 51% won't re-post this. Be part if the 49% who will

my partner and i  were working on a powerpoint in class today and it turned out kinda okay but at the top of the first slide was written: cut us some slack, one of us was high!!
sitting in class doing a powerpoint with a friend and all of the sudden she screams, "BUTT-MUNCHER!!" because it was giving her trouble.. XD
kissing test<3
1.hold you breath
2.click add a quote
3.copy and past this quote
4.good now if you did it without breathing you are a good kisser