My heart
aches,
my eyes sting;
my breath is shallow.
I turn to my friend,
he sit in a secret place,
our little secret.
He’s knows all I hide,
all that is inside of me.
All my pain,
all my secrets;
my past,
my regrets.
I close my eyes,
I feel the warm.
red liquid flow down my wrist.
I don’t scream,
I am silent,
not a single tear.
No more.
I will not cry,
I will shut myself down.
No one will notice anything.
All oblivious to what the night will, hold out for me.
They’ll never know,
they’ll never care.
I’ll sit in silence and I’ll pray,
For god to forgive for my sins, As I reach for my little friend
once again.