chattymaddy96

last night i went to a party...
&he was there.
I thought to myself;
"this is my chance"
it started out awkward as anything;
we didnt say a word.
but as the night moved on we began to talk.
he made me laugh and he made me smile so big
i probably looked like a fool !
then there was a big bug on the window
i began to scream and he made fun of me...
it was adorable.
i thought things couldnt go better...and it did.
before i knew what was happening me and my friend
had our legs on top of his lap and he was playing the drums
and rubbing them..it sounds stupid?
oh trust me it was...but at the same time it was hilarious.
then we started talking about snowboarding...which we both do(:
he was making fun of me because this year was gonna be my 3rd year
and i stilll havent mastered jumping a rail.
at around 10:30 people started to leave; which meant the party was almost over.
it also meant that all the flirting, all the laughter and all the jokes would stop.
i didnt want it to end...it was too good to be true.
finally his dad called and said he was waiting out front,
so he got up and said ughh i have to go.
i stood up and said bye and as i was about to sit down again...he grabbed me
and he hugged me...it was right then and there that i realized i loved him.
not a little crush....but a big one.
the kind of love that gives u butterflies everytime you think about it.
where you cant stop thinking about it....and when u on you cant have him...the kind that gets you depressed
for days.
This all sounds soooooo stupid and you all probably think i am waaaaaay over reacting...
but last night...was one of the best nights of my life<3

NEEDS ADVICE DESPERATLY
(using fake names just so i dont reveal too much)
me=courtney
my crush= billy
My friends completely embarrassed me..they thought it would be funny to write with chalk
ALL over the street in front of my crushes house saying things like courtney+ billy=forever, courtney loves billy...and tons more.Then they sent him pictures while he was out to dinner
then his parents came home and they found it to be hysterical...meanwhile im standing there praying he doesnt jump out of the car. Luckily he doesn't...he had gone to a freinds house....so im thinking phheww this shouldnt be so bad. Then one of my friends text him and said that all of the stuff they wrote all over the street was TRUE and he said i know...so now i knew he had found out somehow that I'd like him. You think thats not bad enough? ohh it gets bettter...then once he answered she said "so Billy is this feeling Courtney's got  for you mutual" meaning do u like her back. Thats TOTALLY putting him under pressure so he didnt answer for a while and finally he said "no sorry". I was crushed...but i didnt show any emotion i sort of just laughed it off. Me and this kid have 4 classes together and its gonna be SOOOOOO awkward when i go to school on Tuesday. I honestly dont know what to do..ive liked this kid for 6 MONTHS and now i feel like ive wasted my time becausse look where its gotten me. He seemed totally fine with the joke but i feel like the friend who text him all that stuff took the joke too far...and the greatest part is the friend that text him all the stuff used to like him too...but now she claims she doesnt like him but honestly i really really think she does. And the worst part is is that in 6th grade they both liked eachother and never went out and she is tall and beautiful and has a perfect life...then theres me...average hieght, a little fat and has had a few major downs in my life. She has had boyfriends in the past and i have had NONE ! i seriously love this kid but now im not sure if ill EVER have a chance. So please please help me with the following:

WHAT AND HOW DO I ACT WHEN I SEE HIM IN SCHOOL ON TUESDAY

SHOULD I JUST FORGET ABOUT LIKING HIM AND MOVE ON BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVE NO CHANCES WITH HIM

AND SHOULD I SAY SOMETHING TO THE FRIEND THAT BASICALLY RUINED ANY CHANCE I HAD WITH THE KID




PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!

NEEDS ADVICE DESPERATLY
(using fake names just so i dont reveal too much)
me=courtney
my crush= billy
My friends completely embarrassed me..they thought it would be funny to write with chalk
ALL over the street in front of my crushes house saying things like courtney+ billy=forever, courtney loves billy...and tons more.Then they sent him pictures while he was out to dinner
then his parents came home and they found it to be hysterical...meanwhile im standing there praying he doesnt jump out of the car. Luckily he doesn't...he had gone to a freinds house....so im thinking phheww this shouldnt be so bad. Then one of my friends text him and said that all of the stuff they wrote all over the street was TRUE and he said i know...so now i knew he had found out somehow that I'd like him. You think thats not bad enough? ohh it gets bettter...then once he answered she said "so Billy is this feeling Courtney's got  for you mutual" meaning do u like her back. Thats TOTALLY putting him under pressure so he didnt answer for a while and finally he said "no sorry". I was crushed...but i didnt show any emotion i sort of just laughed it off. Me and this kid have 4 classes together and its gonna be SOOOOOO awkward when i go to school on Tuesday. I honestly dont know what to do..ive liked this kid for 6 MONTHS and now i feel like ive wasted my time becausse look where its gotten me. He seemed totally fine with the joke but i feel like the friend who text him all that stuff took the joke too far...and the greatest part is the friend that text him all the stuff used to like him too...but now she claims she doesnt like him but honestly i really really think she does. And the worst part is is that in 6th grade they both liked eachother and never went out and she is tall and beautiful and has a perfect life...then theres me...average hieght, a little fat and has had a few major downs in my life. She has had boyfriends in the past and i have had NONE ! i seriously love this kid but now im not sure if ill EVER have a chance. So please please help me with the following:

WHAT AND HOW DO I ACT WHEN I SEE HIM IN SCHOOL ON TUESDAY

SHOULD I JUST FORGET ABOUT LIKING HIM AND MOVE ON BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVE NO CHANCES WITH HIM

AND SHOULD I SAY SOMETHING TO THE FRIEND THAT BASICALLY RUINED ANY CHANCE I HAD WITH THE KID




PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!

& today we went back to school.
we have 3 classes together but we dont sit anywhere NEAR eachother.
as the day goes on..by 6th period...i HATED all my classes from then on.
and then tonight he texted me..
& all my worries and anger went away
and i relaized one thing...
i still love him<3






allllll minne....i am SO happy!!!!!!!!!! xoxox ilovehim<3

i love you so much
its disgusting</3

miiinnneee(: sorry its kind of bland..not in the mood to decorate