Hey there, yep.. im not pretty so you are probably gonna look right
past me. Its okay, im used to it. Its just that now you will never
know they real me. Youll never know how much i hate my life. Youll
never know that i hate most of my family. Youll never know how hard
it is for me to find a true friend. Youll never know that i think
of killing myself or running away almost every day. Youll never
know that whenever i come out of my room, i somehow get in trouble
so i just stay in there whenever im at home. Youll never know that
i completely hide my feelings because if someone asks whats wrong i
will burst into tears. Youll never know why i dont talk in class.
Youll never know how much my dad screams at me & makes fun of
me for no reason. Youll never know that sometimes i just sit in my
room and cry and cry and cry. Youll never know that i have major
trust issues. Youll never know that i think everybody, even my
family, hates me. Youll never know that when i dont get out
of bed & skip school, its because i dont want to have to deal
with everything. Youll never know that i always feel forgotten.
Youll never know that my parents fight all the time. Youll never
know that sometimes i spell whole words completely backwards and
wont even notice it, but im too scared to tell anybody. Youll
never know that my aunt helps me get through this by telling me how
good my future can be. Youll never know that i have a few
close friends (alex, tiarra& lauren) that dont even know about
half this stuff, yet they still get my through all of it. Youll
never know how i can feel all this on the inside, yet smile and act
like nothings wrong on the outside. Youll never know how much it
takes to stick though all of this. Youll never know that im running
on a little bit of hope and i pray that someday, my life will get
better.