Using Mr Parker
♥ Logan
♥
C h a p t
e r 43
On Sunday, I'd be meeting my dads family and
I was so nervous already so on Saturday, I went to Zachs
apartment and we watched a movie. After, he graded some papers
and I helped. Time flew by when I was with Zach.
“I want to take you
somewhere,” Zach told me after we finished grading his year
9 papers.
“Where?” I asked,
smiling up at him.
“It's a
surprise!”
“Will I like this
surprise?”
Zach smirked, “Yes.”
“Okay, lets go!” Zach
got into his car first and a minute later I did, we had to be
careful nobody saw us because then everything would just go
wrong. We were driving for ten minutes and I sang along to the
music on the radio, ignoring Zachs chuckles.
“Where are we going?” I
asked him as he continued driving.
“We're going to meet my
family,” he grinned. My jaw dropped. “You
wouldn't have come any other way and this way you don't
need to be nervous about anything. I've told my parents
everything and they already love you. They're not going to
react the same way Blaze did.”
“No, when they meet me
they're going to hate me,” I muttered.
“They'll love you, trust
me.”
“Nope, you lied to me!”
I exclaimed. “Can't I meet them another time? Maybe one
time when I'm dressed more appropriately? Or when I've
rehearsed what I'm going to say in the mirror a million
times?”
“Too late, we're
here.” We had arrived in front of a grey, two story house
with heaps of colourful plants in the front. “There's
something I haven't told you...” he said, his voice
trailing off wearily.
“What is?” I
questioned.
“My sister,” he choked.
“She was taken... a year ago. She would be 19 today, we
don't know where she is and we've been told to assume the
worse. Please don't ask about her because her photos are
around the house... a lot.”
“Of course,” I nodded,
hesitantly. “You know you could've told me
earlier.”
“Yeah... I just prefer not to
talk about it.”
“What was- what's her
name?” I corrected myself.
“Ariella. We call her
Ella,” he smiled.
“That's a pretty
name,” I told him.
“Yeah... now c'mon, lets
go inside, knowing my mum she's probably staring at us from
inside.” I laughed dryly and he grabbed hold of my hand. I
knew about his family – everything except about his sister
but I understood why he just didn't tell people that. His mum
was a successful fashion designer and his father owned two small
diners. Z&B and Ella's. Both named after his
children.
Zach knocked on the front door and immediately, a woman in her
mid-forties opened the door, grinning.
“Logan!” She cried,
wrapping her arms around me.
Woah.
Using Mr Parker
♥ Logan
♥
C h a p t
e r 42
I suggest listening to 'I won't give up' by Jason Mraz while reading this
Love is a four letter word,
love is something that is illustrated so simply.
Some people think that when you find
that special person that nothing could go wrong, nothing could
break you apart but I don't think thats true. When you find
that special someone thinks will break you apart, things will
make you scream and things will make you smile but these things
just make us stronger.
Everything that Zach and I have gone through only shows how
strong we are, we will over come anything that is thrown our
way.
I never really understood the word love, I would ponder and
ponder but never had I thought that the person you fall in love
with is would become that special to you.
Quite honestly, I would give my left arm for Zach.
I was lying with him on his couch and had just finished telling
him what happened with my dad. We were sitting in comfortable
silence, we didn't need to say anything to enjoy this moment.
Our legs were tangled with each other and my head was on his
chest, his heart beat was soothing.
“You're amazing, you know
that?” I blushed.
“You're prettyvdamn amazing as well,” I told him.
His eyes met mine, they were enthralling in the most amazing way.
He didn't reply, he just smiled and kissed my
forehead.
“Tomorrow, at school, when I
put up two fingers look around wherever we are for something
written in green,” he told me.
“What?” I asked,
confused.
“Just do it,” he
demanded.
“You're so weird,” I
laughed.
“If I remember, a couple of
minutes ago you were telling me how amazing I am,” he
winked and kissed me.
I had never kissed anyone except Zach but I wondered would it
still feel this special? Would I be left breathless and with my
heart fluttering after each and every kiss? Would I feel the
sparks and fireworks?
I asked myself those questions, knowing the answer.
No.
***
I was sitting in Zachs class, we gave each other sly glances
occasionally. “I'm going to hand Jackeline a paper and
she's going to pass it back. I want everybody to write one
thing down, something that you're too scared to tell your
peers. You can write it anonymously, no one will know you wrote
it,” Zach told the class.
“Why are we doing this,
Sir?” Somebody from the back called out.
“Because,” Zach
shrugged, leaving me curious. He handed Jackeline a piece of
paper and she scribbled something on it, handing it back. Soon it
came to me and I immediately knew what I would write.
I love him in a way no one would
understand
I
looked up at Zach and smiled, he put two fingers up and I
remembered our conversation from when I was at this apartment. He
told me when we were in class and he put two fingers up to look
around and find anything written in a green pen. I looked around
but couldn't find anything and then my eyes flickered to the
paper. In green writing, right at the bottom, was written:
I won't give up on
us
Using Mr Parker
♥ Logan
♥
C h a p t
e r 39
He pulled away from me and shook his head. I bit
my lip, looking away from him, my cheeks red from embarrassment.
He had just rejected me. I deserved it, though, I did. How silly
had I been for thinking he'd actually want to kiss me,
thinking he'd actually want to be with me again.
“How do I know?” he
asked, suddenly.
“Know what?” I
asked.
“Know that this isn't some
game to you.” My eyes flickered down to my hands and I
didn't reply. What was I supposed to reply with? “This
isn't a game to you, is it, Logan?” Zach asked after a
minute.
“Of course not!” I
exclaimed, loudly.
“Logan,” he begged.
“Please see where I'm coming from. I just had to
ask...”
“I'm sorry, of course you
did but Zach, please believe me when I say that nothing with you
was just about that bet. I fell for you and I guess I'm
paying the price. You deserve someone better, someone who
didn't use you.”
“You're wrong.” Zach
was so quiet I almost didn't hear him. I looked up from my
shoes and saw Zach staring at me tenderly, his expression soft.
“Can you do me a favour?”
“Anything.”
“Tell me what your feelings
are, what do you feel for me?”
“I'm in love with
you,” I told him, honestly. I was scared at how he'd
react. I wanted to run, runaway anywhere. I didn't like the
way he was looking at me at that moment. I had never been good at
reading people and I didn't even have a clue what Zach was
thinking right now. Suddenly, Zachs home phone started
ringing.
Ring ring.
Zach didn't even budge.
Ring ring ring.
He still didn't reach for the phone.
“Are you going to get
that?” I asked, gesturing towards the ringing phone.
Ring ring ring.
“No.” I gulped,
nervously. “Say it again,” he demanded.
“W-what? 'Are you going to
get that?'” I recited, confused. Zach broke out into an
amused smile and chuckled, quietly. “Not that,” he
bit his lip.
“Whats so funny?” I
groaned.
“I just wanted you to tell me
you love me,” he grinned. His grin matched the humongous
one on my lips.
“I love you,” I told
him.
“Good,” he
murmured.
“Good?”
“Yeah 'cause if you
didn't feel the same way as I felt, I wouldn't be able to
do this,” with that, he kissed
me.
Using Mr Parker
♥ Logan
♥
C h a p t
e r 38
For around half a minute, I waited outside
nervously. I kept asking myself why he wasn't answering the
door straight away like he usually does and then, he opened the
door.
There was no smile on his face, no smirk or no frown, his
expression was as hard as a brick. We stood there, opposite each
other for a few moments just staring, his eyes boring into mine
and then he spoke. “Come in.” I walked inside his
apartment and took a seat on the couch. He surprised me by coming
and sitting next to me. I didn't think he'd do that, I
opened my mouth to say something – anything but nothing
came out. Zach laughed unhumourously, “This is so screwed
up. I honestly have no idea what to think
anymore."
“Z-Zach,” I murmured and
was surprise when he didn't correct me for not using 'Mr
Parker'. “I owe you an apology. I am so sorry, I
didn't mean for any of this to happ-”
“Then what did you mean to
happen, Logan? Just enlighten me.”
“I just... I just wanted my
mum to not need to worry about money. This was 5 grand that I
could at least try to get, I didn't think I'd win and I
never thought Courtney was going to get hold of that
picture.”
“Well guess what she
did.”
“And I'm so sorry but you
won't need to worry about that now.”
“What if she had got the photo
that you could see both of us clearly? What would happen
then.”
“I don't want to think of
that, she didn't and its over.”
“That might be over but we
aren't. We still have lots of things to talk about.”
When he said, that might be over but we aren't,
my heart fluttered and my cheeks burnt but I knew he
didn't mean it in the way I wanted it to.
“I'll answer any questions
you want,” I told him.
Simply, he asked, “Why?”
“I've told you how my dad
left my mum and I a couple of years ago and I've always told
you that a couple of months ago we moved in with my Aunt Cassidy
because the council took the house away from us. Since then,
I've been trying to help my mum get any extra money. I've
sent my mum money anonymously with money my dad sent me and money
from my car. To you, five grand might be nothing but to me, thats
a lot of money.” I reached into my bag, picking out a
bundle of money.
Five thousand dollars.
“Whats that?” he
asked.
“Thats the money Courtney gave
to me, I don't want it. You can have it,” I replied,
putting the money on the table. “That money is nothing but
filth to me now. It may have taken me a while to realise how
horrible I was using you like that. I can't give that money
to my mum.”
Zach sighed, “I don't want that money. Give it to your
mother.”
“No,” I said,
firmly.
“Give it back to Courtney
then,” he said. “I don't care what you do with
the money, I don't want it though.” I didn't say
anything but I didn't take the money. Zach leant in slightly
and I hoped that he kissed me. I leant up and put my lips on his,
my eyes fluttered open for a split second to see his wide
open.
He
wouldn't kiss me back.
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{A/N This chapter was actually really hard for me to write, I had
no idea how I wanted this chapter to go but here it is!
(:}