cherryblue

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MENTAL WOUNDS

 still   s    c   r   e   a   m   i   n   g  ,   d r i v i n g  ) me insane    [x] [x] [x]  








 
                          we come alone
                                                                        AND ALONE WE
                                                                               ←DIE→    

 


     some people want to fill the world with








  
  siLLY  Love soNGs
                                                         and what's wrong with that?

 
i wish someone could tell me that i am strong.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for trying to tell myself that i am important and trying to make myself feel important constantly, every day, when no one else does or even bothers to help.

i want someone to tell me that i am brave for taking the benefit of the doubt and sitting with the same people in the cafeteria who always leave me out of everything and never invite me to anything, brave for assuming that i am too sensitive and that i have to give them another chance for their friendship.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for keeping a positive and optimistic attitude even when i am always the third or fifth wheel of everything, the last to know each detail, or the one who is never told.

i wish someone could tell me that i am courageous for no longer crying and isolating myself even more when things went wrong with my social life and actually putting in effort to fix it, even though that effort has not brought any change.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for constantly pretending that i am okay with how i feel like i'm being treated.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for keeping a smile on my face while people don't consider how i really feel inside.

i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for walking into a place every single day where i know that i am no one's and not ever will i be anyone's first choice, best friend, ride or die, or person they genuinely and seriously want in their life.

i wish that someone could tell me that i am strong for existing in a world where there are people all around me, but there is not one who truly cares about ME or who I AM. 

it's a struggle that doesn't seem to be understood by many, but that does not mean that it's not a difficult one. i know nobody knows exactly what i'm going through, but i just want to be recognized for my extensive efforts in trying to keep myself happy and making the best out of my life. just for once.


 but the thing is,

a pill isn't going to give me the life i want.

a pill isn't going to give me the social life i want and the experiences i need and the special things i want to happen for me while i'm still young.

a pill isn't going to get me out of fake friendships and lonely weekends thinking about what i did wrong and how i can be a better person so i can actually have something to do that most teenagers do besides homework and studying. 

sure, a pill will give me the power to be able to control myself better. it can help me be more optimistic about life. however, i cannot control other people and how they view me. so as long as i still feel lonely, i'll still be unhappy.


             jealousy made you
                WANT TO OWN ME, and that was w h a t
      {   x   }    {   x   }    {   x   }   
left us both A LITTLE LONELY.





I’m Meaner
 

than

 my demons.


 





love is cruel when you realize 
that you'll give your life to someone
who has given up on you.




 

sometimes, it hurts to be different.
sometimes, you have to try new things.

sometimes, you have to step out of the comfort zone of your favorite band that no one else has ever heard of besides old people or your internet friends. i'm not telling you to stop liking them, not at all.

love them as much as you want to and don't ever be ashamed of it.

but sometimes, you have to take that extra step and take a moment to check out that band or artist that everyone is talking about these days. i'm not telling you to fall in love with them, not at all. it's okay if you end up hating them.

i'm just telling you to stop judging books by their covers because they aren't the band or artist that got you through some of the toughest times of your life.

have an open mind, because who knows, that one artist you turn your nose up to now might become your new favorite.

sometimes, you have to relate to people in order to make new friends and keep them.

sometimes, you have to avoid frowning upon popular things because they are new to you and not what you are used to.

i mean, they're popular for a reason, right?

so get yourself out there and test out the waters to see what everyone is talking about. and whether you like these waters or not, you can return back to your cozy home whenever you please.

but this is why sometimes, it hurts to be different.

and it's healthy that you expand yourself.






        chasing after you is like a FAIRYTALE
                                                   but i feel like i'm glued on tight to this carousel.