i wish
someone could tell me that i am strong.
i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for trying to tell
myself that i am important and trying to make myself feel
important constantly, every day, when no one else does or even
bothers to help.
i want someone to tell me that i am brave for taking the benefit
of the doubt and sitting with the same people in the cafeteria
who always leave me out of everything and never invite me to
anything, brave for assuming that i am too sensitive and that i
have to give them another chance for their friendship.
i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for keeping a
positive and optimistic attitude even when i am always the third
or fifth wheel of everything, the last to know each detail, or
the one who is never told.
i wish someone could tell me that i am courageous for no longer
crying and isolating myself even more when things went wrong with
my social life and actually putting in effort to fix it, even
though that effort has not brought any change.
i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for constantly
pretending that i am okay with how i feel like i'm being
treated.
i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for keeping a smile
on my face while people don't consider how i really feel
inside.
i wish someone could tell me that i am strong for walking into a
place every single day where i know that i am no one's and
not ever will i be anyone's first choice, best friend, ride
or die, or person they genuinely and seriously want in their
life.
i wish that someone could tell me that i am strong for existing
in a world where there are people all around me, but there is not
one who truly cares about ME or who I AM.
it's a struggle that doesn't seem to be understood by
many, but that does not mean that it's not a difficult one. i
know nobody knows exactly what i'm going through, but i just
want to be recognized for my extensive efforts in trying to keep
myself happy and making the best out of my life. just for once.