My memories with him
We'd been going to school together for 4 years, i never liked
him, i thought he was a stupid chidish, self-centred boy, we
started talking because his best friend and i were quite close
(friendly of course), one day him, and my friend had a major
argument and i was the only one there to fix it, and i did. That
night i messaged him on facebook, asking if he was alright, and
thats where it all started.
We spent the majority of our days in school together, and all
night on the phone, i started to get painful butterflies
everytime i saw him, i always wanted to be around him, so when he
asked me to prom, i felt amazing, for days. My life felt like it
couldnt get better, i was going to prom with a boy who i was sure
i was in love with, my friends all liked him, i was passing in
school and my family life was amazing. As things got deeper, he
asked me to his house, at first i was so afraid, and told him i
was busy, but i wanted to see him so bad i plucked up the courage
and that night my dad dropped me to his house, i was so scared it
was going to be awkward, but we spent the whole night on the sofa
drinking danelion and burdock pop and watching take me out, and a
pile of scary films, which he was more scared at than me. 10 o
clock came and my dad was outside, as i stood up, he pulled me
into his arms, and thats when we had our first kiss.
I was in a daze, i was in love. months went by and we were
finally a couple, i spent all weekend at his house,and he spent
the weekdays at mine, watching disney films, ordering dominos,
having naps, play fighting, and having the odd argument.
Obviously, i was in my last year of school, so exams were
coming up, but i just wanted to be with him, every minute of
every day. We walked around the lake every night, talking about
everything, he was so amazing, and like i said i was in a
daze, my perfect idea of a relationship was actually
happening...but then things started to change.
He started to get jelous of me and another friends friendship, he
shouted at me and threatned me when he saw us together, even if
it was walking to class, he stared to push me around, hit me when
we were alone, but i just took it as a bump in the road, i hid my
bruises, and carried on, as if i was in this amazing, perfect
relationship. He then started to play up in school, he got banned
from prom, and told me i wasnt allowed to go, i was starting to
be more than something he owned, than something he loved. More
time went on, more bruising, more screaming arugments and more
fighting over the phone, i then find out he was a cheat, after 2
weeks of no communicaiton, i ended it. But it didnt last long, i
gave in to his half hearted apologies, i wanted him back.. and he
was more than happy to take me. When he got kicked out of school,
people started to suspect things. He turned up every day on his
bike to walk me home, he snached my phone away to check on me, he
praised me for having no contact with anyone, even my best
friend, who was a girl. i started to resent the person who i once
loved, i stated to take a puff on my frineds ciggarette to make
him angry, just so i could shout and scream at him. Just before
prom, i ended our relationship for good. A few months later i saw
him at a party and felt something id never felt before. Hate, it
had taken me so so long to get over him, even though my
relationship was so so bad. After a few bottles of cider, he took
another chance and dragged me out to the garden, punched me
around a bit, pinned me up against a wall and kissed me so hard i
cried in pain, that night i cried myself to sleep, with my best
friend beside me, half crying for me, and half becuase she was
too drunk. I told myself it was over forever, and i never wanted
to see him again.
Its been over a year since the day we began to talk. and i miss
him terribly.