*ciara *

Status: ghost town is so nice and they give great hugs
Joined: April 17, 2013
Last Seen: 5 months
Birthday: November 16
user id: 357290
Location: new jersey
Gender: F

Hey there!

I'm ciara, and I enjoy  a  lot of music, tv shows, and youtubers. 
I will probably  talkto you, so give me a shout!

ps: my writing probably sucks but i like itso that's okay



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Quotes by *ciara *

not even sure why my quote was added 3 times but ok

its my birthday guys i literally stayed up just so i could tell everyone 
but someone from issues said they loved me and even though i didnt get a follow i am still freaking out like
wowie. hopefully today someone i love will do a follow spree or something because that would be the best
present ever ya dig

ily all

...and just when the caterpillar thought the world was over,
                                                            it became a butterfly

so another one of the titles 

"Write something your parents would be proud of"

there goes my dirty joke idea

"will u marry me" says the man
"is ur name harry styles i think not" sayd the girl

the end


                                                     so last night we had a family dinner for mine and my brothers birthday, and they were talking about favorites.
                                           i said, "well, who's favorite am i?" jokingly. and then my mom was like, "are you serious ciara you know
                                           who's favorite you were". i knew exactly what she was talking about. my grandmother who passed away.
                                           yes, i know she loved me very much, but it also hurts because sometimes i feel like she was the only
                                           one who cared.
so, i went to a sleeping with sirens concert on tuesday.
and, kellin is such an inspiration.
like, he gave us this speech about how his fans are the best people in the world.
he said he loved how nice we were.
and that we could make a change. 

then, someone got hurt crowdsurfing i guess,
and he was asking so politely for someone to help the guy.
the people at the venue wouldnt even turn the lights on.
so, we all took our cell phones and shined it on him.
he got out safely.

and, the next day, kellin asked if the guy was okay via twitter.
he's so nice, like seriously.

no, im not a fangirl. well, i am.
but i truly admire that band so much.
they're so nice
are you kidding me
i ate a mint and i cracked my tooth omg
alright, so i'm feeling even worse today because of this movie i watched in language arts.
it was bullying awareness week or whatever, and we were doing activities all week.
so, we watched this movie, and all the kids were laughing at the screen, except for me.
like, they laughed at things the bullies said, or they laughed at someone getting punched.
i didn't think it was funny at all. i thought it was terrible, and i got to the point where my eyes
started tearing up. then, a section about suicide came on. this teenage girl, she was beautiful
to me. but not to everyone else. i didn't understand. her smile was so bright and i loved it. and
her cute little braids, i can't even explain it. but, she was bullied for being an outcast. she attempted
suicide, by overdosing herself. it didn't work. the students in her school continued to bully her, and 
she finally did kill herself. this time, she used a rifle. she was sure to die. and she did. i started 
bawling during that time. they read her suicide note out loud, and it made me think of my note.
the one i prepared months ago, and was sure to use it one day. i got better, a little less depressed
i guess you can say, but only for about 2-3 weeks. it was a fun time, trust me. i ignored all drama,
laughed constantly, and acted like the old ciara. but then the bullies came back. anonymous messages,
making me realize who i really am. that nerd who sits in the back of the classroom. the one who rarely speaks.
the one who when she does speak, it's only to give hints to other people that she needs help. even my best friend
couldn't pick it up. i could full out say "help me", and she would continue talking to people who seem more important to
her. little does she know, i'm the one who's really been there, and i'll always be there. i don't understand how she
expects me to help her with some friend drama, when she doesn't help me when im on the verge of killing myself.
i'm just done. it's been maybe 7 weeks clean, and woops. relapse. thank you bullies, you mean so much to me.
so kind, as usual. just making people hurt/kill themselves. give yourselves a pat on the back! 
no one means all he says,
and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery, and thought is viscious

- henry adams