I miss the old good conversations with my mom.I
remember seeing her laugh at my mistakes and kissing me everyday
when she came back home.I miss her asking me if I want help, or
even if I feel good or not.I remember when we used to watch movies
together.I missed those days when I felt guilty as hell and she was
there for me, trying to keep calm.I miss her saying me I'm
beautiful no matter what.I miss hugging her.
Cause now everytime I get closer to her she walks away yelling me
what do i want.I hear the words 'ugly' & 'fat'
everyday.I've seen her crying because I'm the worst
daughter in the world...
Now that daddy is gone, I must take care of everything, but I
really can't afford all those things...It's been 3 months
and I haven't seen the outside for a long time.The only way I
can talk to my 'friends' is Facebook, where they ask me to
take care of their accounts while they're on vacation.
Whenever mom finds me on a computer, she yells and gets away
mumbling things about me.
Today she asked me if I wanted to come to her work and then eat
pizza together.
I accepted, but when I was getting ready I accidentaly dropped an
open bottle on the floor, so I started cleaning as fast as I
could.After I finished I ran to my mom, when I found her halfway
home.
She started saying I was mocking with her all the time.
I didn't even try to explain, because I knew she was going to
yell me she was right, so I just listened to her telling stuff
about me, yelling & crying.
I feel horrible.I don't know what to do, but I feel
horrible.
And I'm really sorry to write this stupid stuff here., but I
have nobody else to tell.I'm sorry everyone.....I'm
sorry.